• Mission Man: Hip-Hop Without Ego

2017 will be the 25 year anniversary of when I started rapping! Because of this, I want you to remix my music for a remix album that I will be releasing to celebrate! Find out more in the discography section below, or by clicking on the link to the Facebook event.

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Mission Man Discography

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2017 is the 25 year anniversary of when I started rapping, and I want you to remix my music for a remix album that I'll be releasing on my birthday, January 19th, 2017. Songs that have already been remixed, or are currently being remixed, are Do What You Love, Chillin' at the Papa, Playin' a Little Basketball, Prime Time Players, and Weightliftin' Jam (as of December 21st, 2015). If there's a song you're most interested in remixing, let me know and I'll get you a vocal track as soon as possible. You can contact me using the form below, or at Facebook.com/missionman.

In the meantime, you can listen to the first remix from the album on Spotify, or download it on iTunes.

The Digital Box Set includes Mission Man's first 11 albums for just $50! That's a total of 192 songs! Currently, each album is available as a zip file to make it quicker to download. Albums include Intro To My Mind, Delve Deeper, Transitions, Out of the Shadows, A Different Kid, Antis Trype, Put Down The Pen, Indiependent, 31 Hours Til What, liberty island, and M''.

  • 1. Love, Funk and Soul

    Chorus: This isn't sex, drugs, and rock'n'roll
    It's just love, funk and soul

    I don't care if you drink or not
    Until you think I'm hot
    I'm coming everyday giving it all I've got
    Waking up, driven by love
    Everyday, yes, now I'm giving enough
    It's not about living it up
    It's about staying grounded
    And hopefully leaving this place better than I found it
    It's not about drinking 'til I'm plastered
    Making everything go faster and faster
    It's about staying sober
    Taking it slower
    Breathing it in
    Feeling the grin
    Chillin' with friends
    And I'll do it again
    It's not about spending my money, it's about earning my time
    And learning to find
    All the simply joys
    Instead of being annoyed
    By the little things
    I won't let them give me brittle wings
    Instead I'll soar with the strength of an eagle
    And I choose to be full
    Spreading love to my people

    chorus:

    Right now
    I'll spend the night out
    But I'll remember that tomorrow matters too
    And I won't let the sorrow splatter through
    As I follow after you
    I'm not a wham, bam thank you ma'am
    One night stand
    I won't hit it and quit it
    Because I believe in commmitment
    We've been together for 2 decades now
    And I still feel like I'm getting this down
    Because it's building me up
    Filling my cup
    With the water I need
    Loving the air that I breathe
    And for this reason I believe

    chorus:

  • 2. We're All Superheroes

    I have reoccurring dreams of taking flight
    In the night
    Overcoming the plight
    Of many enemies
    And the places that they're sending me
    Mainly I just fly
    And I
    Am usually invincible
    I don't even wince at all
    I use my powers to help those in need
    With my deep seeded confidence
    Instead of sitting on a fence
    I'll knock it down
    So when I'm found
    We can travel on common ground
    And if I need to, I'll elevate you
    Put you on my shoulder so you can fly along
    I don't need to try some wrong
    To know that I'm living right
    I've been given sight
    That can only be achieved through the mind
    As I seem to find
    Myself learning the secrets to my powers
    So I can make them ours
    For my dreams to come true
    My friends have to live them too
    I want to teach the world to fly
    All on the same level so no one seems to high
    Or low
    You know
    That we're all superheroes

    chorus: We're all superheroes

    Superheroes have unique abilities and skills
    Wills
    To be the best in the worst situation
    That they're facing
    Overcoming horrific circumstances
    Still willing to take chances
    Even if the odds are long
    They're at their strongest
    When they're fighting for their loved ones
    That's where their strength comes from
    Even if their powers have different origins
    From the sun to oxygen
    And all the toxins in
    A spider bite
    The higher might
    Is derived from the same place
    When our hearts race
    We're at our best
    And we're truly blessed
    Nothing can stop us, even through the pain
    I'd do anything for you and I know you'd do the same
    If I were the one who needed to be rescued
    Yes you'd
    Risk your world for me
    So we can see
    The beauty in this world and its humanity
    All the flaws and imperfections
    As we pause at intersections
    Doing our best when
    All we have are questions
    Are we destined
    Or do we control our own fate
    Sometimes we just have to wait
    But when you're uncertain, I'll be there for you
    Because you are my superhero too

    Chorus:

  • 3. Wisdom In My Writing

    The wisdom in my writing says that rhythm is inviting
    Listen it's dividing, no it isn't, it's combining
    Whispers as I'm trying
    To kiss her while I'm flying
    Bring me back from my dream
    I want to go back to that scene
    Relive the beauty and the pain
    She wasn't just a cutie with a brain
    I loved her unconditionally
    But it wasn't up to me
    So I had to let it be
    I gave her a piece of my heart and she let it go
    A love like that is something I will never know
    With another soul
    So I embrace the beauty of getting old
    The wisdom in my writing says that rhythm is inviting
    So my heart beats on

  • 4. Love

    That's the Kind of Love that I want

    I saw an elderly couple walking down the street
    Hand in hand, feet to feet
    Stride for stride walking side by side
    To the rhythm of one heartbeat
    With each other they're so complete
    And it made think, no it made me feel
    Seeing love so real
    I don't know what they've been through, but I'm sure it's been a lot
    In ways you can't capture with a single shot
    A beauty beyond words, beyond pictures or films
    Something I cannot gain in the realm
    Of fiction and fantasy
    Something that has to be
    Experienced first hand
    To understand
    Every flaw embraced
    Through all the mistakes
    All was forgiven
    This is what I think of when I think of truly living
    Truly loving
    It all comes from nothing
    Turns into something
    And takes your breath away
    Until one day
    You arrive in the moment long after age and time no longer have meaning
    This is a future I want to be seeing
    And I'm ready to risk it all
    Take my falls
    I'll stand tall
    After I get knocked down and back up again
    I'm ready for love to begin

    Chorus: That's the kind of love that I want x4

    I don't need to be cool
    I'm ready to act the fool
    Forget about embarrassment and the fear of rejection
    I'll take it all for that one acceptance
    I'm willing to have my heart dragged through the trenches
    And stuck on the fences
    While learning to climb walls
    Watching time stall
    To see it suddenly skip a few days, weeks, months or longer
    Letting the obstacles make me stronger
    So I can find the love that I'm seeking
    One that makes me richer than three kings
    And when I find her, yes I'll take out the trash
    And get ice for a rash
    Be nice with my cash
    Because it'll be ours
    Through the hours
    The minutes
    The seconds
    The moments
    Until time is frozen
    In perfection
    Realizing every rejection
    Was worth it to get there
    From this side it may not seem fair
    But I know nothing else can truly compare
    I don't care
    About the stares
    The glares
    The judgments
    The punishments
    For being human
    Others will see what I'm doing
    But I won't let it ruin
    The chances that I'll take for love
    It's not about money, somehow we'll make enough
    And this life will make it tough
    But when we can walk side by side
    Stride for stride
    Hand in hand
    We'll understand
    What it's like to be complete
    Living to the rhythm of one heartbeat

    Chorus:

  • 5. Time

    It's that time again

    Time to question everything

    Breaking myself into a thousand piece puzzle
    Not just the fat and the muscle
    The blood, sweat, bone and tears
    But the fears
    Insecurities
    Impurities
    The things that worry me
    And the big questions, like will anyone ever marry me
    The why, why not
    And everything I've got
    Everything that wants to rule my world
    As the plan is unfurled
    And ripped to shreds
    The secrets lying in my bed
    Thrown in for bad measure
    Mixed with false treasures
    It's time to examine it all
    As I fall
    Into autumn
    Rebuilding from the bottom
    Looking at every piece before adding it or discarding
    The easy and the hard things
    Feeling it all 'til it's all overwhelming
    Feeding until I don't know if I'm hungry
    Thinking about those who love me
    And those that said no
    Most I let go
    And breathed a sigh of relief
    Make the breath deep
    Then fight with the grief
    I won't spite the belief
    That my life won't be brief
    I won't deny I believe
    That I'll live to be 90 at least
    Devouring a fat feast
    To wrestle with this bad beast
    There are things I question
    Without exception
    The failures and successes
    The nos and yesses
    The knows and guesses
    The setbacks and lessons
    Living free or destined
    Past perfection
    'Til I'm onto the next sin
    I was never really a freshman
    Because I lost my mom at 15 and started college less than a year later
    Which made my fears greater
    I didn't feel accepted at the university
    Where no one had heard of me
    Living with my grandma and working at the bookstore
    Being younger than everyone else made it hurt more
    And so did the fact that I would've gone to college for free
    If my mom had completed her PhD
    And survived the cancer
    I would've found very different answers
    But I won't go down the road of what if
    Somehow I never even smoked one spliff
    And didn't drink until I was 22
    Because what I knew
    For sure
    Was that drugs and alcohol would never be the cure
    It wasn't really about staying pure
    Well, maybe a little bit
    Part of me is still a little kid
    Not touching drugs because my dad
    Told me they were bad
    But as an adult, I've made my own decisions
    With the wisdom
    That I have to do what's right for me
    That's why I'm writing this tonight you see
    Part of it's therapy
    But it's mainly about fully examining me
    Denying or affirming
    What keeps my fire burning
    Because forever I am learning
    Or at least for the rest of life
    And it makes for a long night
    Where I'm definitely not alright
    But I keep going
    So I can keep growing
    I take a look at my dreams
    And what pursuing them really means
    Part of me will always be pissed off
    That I couldn't get this off
    The ground
    Trying to make a living from my sound
    But I couldn't do it
    I couldn't even make a profit off my music
    And I'm trying not to lose it
    Thinking about all I've lost already
    And I'm not so steady
    Licking my dry lips while my hands are sweaty
    My face is flushed
    As my thoughts cascade in a rush
    A waterfall of emotion
    As I leave the flood gates open
    To let hope in
    I have to face my doubts
    To make me proud
    I have to break me down
    And look at the role love has played
    Rejected in so many ways
    I still think I'll be accepted one of these days
    And not by someone old enough to be my mom
    Shortly after she was gone
    I was 16, and this woman was 39
    And our lives intertwined
    Because I liked her 15 year old daughter
    But I crossed that bridge over seriously troubled waters
    Then I met my soulmate
    But before I could ask her out on a date
    Her ex lied to me and stole her back
    Causing a two year heart attack
    I truly loved her
    I believe she'd be the mother
    Of our wonderful children
    But again
    That what if road is closed
    And I suppose
    It's for the better
    Our story was a book long love letter
    That no one ever got to read
    And that wound occasionally still bleeds
    But that scar is a part of me
    One that I couldn't change if I wanted to
    When I see it in the mirror, I say I love you
    Then I question my philosophies
    And if they're honestly
    Holding me back or lifting me up
    Am I giving too much
    Am I taking enough
    Am I making it tougher
    Than it has to be
    I reflect on family
    And how much it matters
    Even if they're scattered
    Thousands of miles apart
    They're always in my heart
    Do I take too many risks and are they the right ones
    Do I sacrifice tonight to make my life fun
    Am I making the wrong turns
    Thinking about the long term
    And not focusing enough on this moment
    Not knowing
    If it's safe
    Somethings I have to take on faith
    Because hope is what makes freedom so valuable
    No matter how you fall

  • 6. Year Long Winter

    It's just like my grandma used to say
    I'm feeling tired, uninspired, and a little blase
    Once upon a time I was on my way
    But not today

    Chorus: It's been a year long winter

    I hit the road and it became a little lonely
    The lights
    Burning bright
    In my eyes came to own me
    I was driving all around but I didn't know the
    Direction I was heading in
    I was sending in
    Grins
    And at first it seemed like a win
    Riding with the wind
    'Til I paused and it blew cold right in my face
    I wasn't liking the taste
    It made me sick
    And then I got hit
    Got run right off the road
    And it was oh so cold
    I was feeling old
    And questioning everything I have told
    To myself for 20 years
    Overcame so many fears
    Because I didn't take the time to be scared
    I just made the rhymes and then prepared
    There was so much to do
    Of course I knew
    That societal pressures were ever present
    But I laughed in the face of several lessons
    Until I took the time to ask some questions
    And I froze

    And I froze

    Chorus:

    That was about ten months ago
    Right now it's about ten below
    Inside and out
    And I'm hiding in the house
    Lighting that spark again
    From within
    I've made it harder than it has to be
    I used to just smile when they laughed at me
    But I've let in some doubts
    And it's time to get them out
    Time to get back to what I'm all about
    Getting warmed up and getting back on the route
    That I was on
    For so so long
    And I gotta get back and go so strong
    It's time to face the cold
    Embrace my soul
    Forget about mistakes and erase them all

    chorus:

    Spring's coming
    And I'm running
    And I'm knowing that it's time to go
    Feeling like I'm 13 and there's time to grow
    That's when I peaked because I opened my soul
    I let in the music
    And used it
    To improve every part of me
    So I could laugh so heartily
    I was kindling fires, now I'm sparking the
    Fire within
    That's where this change has to begin

  • 7. Next Lifetime

    My next lifetime starts now
    As my heart pounds
    Forgetting about what could've been and working on what can be
    I'm onto plan Z
    Zachariah Sebastian
    It's a name of passion
    Not fame or fashion
    My game is laughing
    The same attraction
    Of player to champion
    Is what drives me to do what can't be done
    I am the one
    Who goes from practice squad
    To having half the quad
    Telling me
    I'm the BMOC
    And I'm doing it to be free
    And overcome the troubles of the past
    Love is all that lasts
    True love the deepest kind
    That I seek to find
    And keep in mind
    Every moment I'm alive
    Whether I'm scoring on the drive
    Or preparing for the big game
    And after it's over and no one knows my name
    And the story of my glory fades
    Barely remembered on the tattered page
    Only a flash on the shattered stage
    Advancing to a latter age
    I won't be stuck in a batter's cage

    Chorus: My next lifetime starts now as my heart pounds
    I won't back down as I raise the ground
    I'm putting it in ink, you can't erase it now
    I'll keep growing because I know how

    I closed a very long chapter in a monstrous book
    It's filled with laughter if you want to look
    To get there, pain and sacrifice is what it took
    It wasn't just one verse with a silly hook
    If you read it page by page
    You may find it strange
    In a different age
    Chances are it will even change
    Because perspective affects reality
    What's real to us is what we see
    And when we change, everything else does too
    I did everything I could to make my dreams come true
    And I lived them for a long while
    Going out with strong smiles
    Even through the wrong miles
    Because I knew where to go, but not how to get there
    And yes I'm battling some bitterness
    Thinking about what did I miss
    And if it's too late for the sweetest kiss
    That's why I don't reminisce
    Long enough for it
    To make me quit
    And give up on the here and now
    It's not about cheering crowds
    It's about doing what I need
    So I can succeed
    In this lifetime because I'm not waiting for the next one

    chorus:

  • 8. Just Getting Started

    I'm 36
    And you heard me since
    I was 17
    Passionately pursuing the best of dreams

    chorus: And I'm just getting started

    Will you come with me as I start it up?
    Yes, we're just getting started

    It was difficult to accept
    As I took that deep breath
    And let the frost hit my lungs
    That something I'd been doing since I was very young
    Seemed like it was done
    The dream was gone
    And the scene moved on
    But as I replay it in my mind
    I know I'll find
    Continued inspiration
    And new aspirations
    I've played 17 states, plus an open mic in Tokyo
    I woke up every morning saying that I've got to go
    170 songs
    And still going strong
    No amount of heckling
    Would let me give up on this thing
    I didn't care about those who'd insult me when I sing
    I'd still bring
    Every bit of my soul
    Because music made me whole
    Sure the lonely nights on the road took a toll
    But that wasn't enough
    To make me give up
    Because through the negative
    I still continued to give
    And it started to pay off slowly
    When some fans truly came to know me
    That connection showed me
    What makes life truly great
    And lessened the weight
    And the mountain became a feather
    Even in inclimate weather
    Torrential rains
    Strained
    My vision
    But I didn't have to see to feel that I was winning
    So my mind kept spinning
    As my wheels hydroplaned
    And I couldn't find my lane
    So I kicked it up another gear
    Driving with no fear
    Even after some drunks drove me off the road
    I could still carry the load
    Until I realized that my best wasn't quite good enough
    It didn't matter that I was tough
    I chased my dream until it disappeared
    And it took me over a year
    To go from there to here
    I've learned a lot along the way
    And now I'm proud to say

    That I'm just getting started
    Come with me and we'll start it up
    We're just getting started

    I'm living in the moment
    Saving up money to open
    The Music Arcade
    Tracking every dollar I've made
    And how much I've saved
    I've got my business plan with my spreadsheet
    And I'm still Mission Man in my bedsheets
    Sleeping on a twin
    Sacrificing so I can begin
    To give back to my hometown
    It took knowing what I know now
    To figure out how
    To make the scene better
    And letting it act as a teen center
    In the afternoons
    Bringing laughter soon
    To my community
    Making things better for you and me
    And hopefully
    Helping others live their own dreams
    Showing them the love my fans have shown me
    And helping them go free
    And doing it with the same passion
    And satisfaction
    That I've had from rapping
    And making music
    I get to use it
    For something greater than myself
    And more important than wealth

    chorus:

    There's still so much to accomplish and live for
    I probably won't go on another big tour
    But I will still experience love and start a family
    And live happily
    Together
    Giving never
    A new definition
    Revising my wishing
    To be about my children
    This is the future I'm building
    That's why I'm willing
    To work so hard
    To earn the yard
    I'll fight for the inch
    And it'll seem like a cinch
    When my home amplifies my heart
    And I can impart
    My wisdom
    On my kids some
    Day
    I'm on my way
    And I'm happy to say

    chorus:

  • 9. The Beauty of Song

    I start off with a single thought and then expand
    Write it out by hand
    Using my pen like a brush
    Letting the ink and the paper touch
    Slow it down, there's no need to rush
    But sometimes it comes out in a flood
    Mixing with the dirt, turning it to mud
    Painting a picture, then animating it frame by frame
    No moment is the same
    As another
    My instruments all believe in each other
    Whether I lead with drums
    Then lay down some
    Bass groove
    That stays smooth
    So my guitar
    Can shine like a star

    Or I start with the keys
    I believe in me
    I don't always know
    How music comes from my soul
    Because I'm not in control
    At least not completely
    But I can see
    The night sky
    In my mind's eye
    Each note adding to the tapestry
    Comedy or tragedy
    This is how it has to be
    Each brushstroke adding definition and depth
    Until all that's left
    Is imagination filling in the rest
    I do my best
    To express
    And so it's written
    There's nothing else to fit in
    The song is done
    But its life has just begun
    The song embraces its fate
    It's too late
    To add anything to the landscape
    The portrait is painted
    But before it is faded
    It takes its first step on its own
    No longer completely unknown
    Nowhere near full grown
    We can make a movie about it
    If time and resources allow it
    Now it's not just sound, but you can see it too
    You can its pictures move
    They can soothe
    Or make you groove
    And you'll remember it more
    But even if it's just a score
    Without a kinetascope
    It can live on and give hope
    I can perform it live
    And watch as it thrives
    Witness it arrive
    To another moment in its lifespan
    Now it's no longer in my hands
    Where it goes from here
    Is up to the cheers
    And the ears of the listeners
    Over the din of the whisperers
    Will it rise and cause a roar from the crowd
    Will it make them proud
    So they play it loud
    For all their friends to hear
    Will they hold it dear
    And let it get near
    Their own hearts and souls
    This is something I cannot control
    And that's why it's so beautiful
    The landscape I painted
    Of the song I created
    Has turned into its own town, its own city
    It's so pretty
    It may even have created its own countryside
    And gone worldwide
    Its own world, with its own solar system
    I just loaned it rhythm
    It has its own soul
    Its own blues
    Its own hues
    And it's so true
    Music, I know you
    You're so much more
    Than I could ever hope for
    I offer my sincere appreciation
    And elation
    At being a part of something so much bigger than me
    My song could live on for eternity
    And it's because of you
    The one who
    Is listening right now
    I need to get this thought down

    I am very honored to have my music be a part of your life

  • 10. Show Time

    It's time to wake up
    Mkae myself some breakfast
    What comes next is
    Time to do some work or maybe find some
    Staying on the grind until the night comes
    Looking forward to show time
    So I can go rhyme
    And in my mind

    Chorus: It's show time
    It's time to bust moves
    And time to just groove
    And time to let loose

    Working everyday to build a better future
    This is my life and this is what I do to
    Try to make it better on a day to day basis
    Covering my bases
    Trading some of my hours for dollars so I can spend them
    Paying utilities so companies don't suspend them
    And yes
    I've gotta get through the stress
    Of being able to pay my rent
    So many hours and dollars already spent
    And I haven't got gas or filled my belly yet
    So I take a break, relax with the tele set
    Back to work for a while
    Find a way to smile
    Knowing that my hours are adding up
    I hit the point in the day where I know I've had enough
    I'm so ready for the moment that I love

    chorus:

    I'm done making money for my time
    And I'm
    Moving on
    So my groove is strong
    Practicing my dance moves
    In my bedroom
    Learning my bed against the wall so I can just zoom
    Back and forth
    So I can stay on course
    And mabe rehearse until my voice is hoarse
    Hoping the crowd comes, but the choice is yours
    Playing the drums, bass, guitar and keyboard
    Playing around with the chords
    Until I find the soound
    That makes me want to get down
    Spending hours in the session
    Getting my expression right
    So I can get in a fresh set tonight

    chorus:

    This is the moment that I truly love
    It's just proof that the groove's enough
    It's not about me or you, it's us
    Coming together in the moment, we own it, and I know why
    Dancing and singing in unison is so fly
    The moment when "oh my"
    Becomes "oh ours"
    Knowing that this minute is better than those hours
    Everybody's winning and we're all getting more powers
    Feeling collectively invincible
    Feel like we'll win it all
    Just by keeping the music spinning all
    Night
    And everyone's feeling alright

    chorus:

    And it's our time!

"Hope is what makes freedom so valuable, no matter how you fall." - the final line of "Time" from the album "Zachariah Sebastian" sums up the overall theme of this album. After doing everything I could to make a living from my music for over 20 years, including getting a bachelors degree in business, touring 18 states, sleeping in my car on said tours, spending thousands of dollars on online advertising, giving away tens of thousands of demos, making countless fliers, countless other things I'm forgetting, and giving everything I had of myself when creating the music, I finally accepted that I couldn't make a living from it.

Hope is a huge part of what drove me for so long. When I lost the hope of making a living from my music, I struggled, and this album is primarily about that struggle. It's also about regaining hope for everything else in my life, and finding ways to be happy. "Time" is about what I go through every September, when I revisit losing my mom to cancer in September of 1994. I over analyze every part of my life and myself, and when I finish the process, I am renewed and invigorated with a strong sense of life and purpose.

Of course, hope of making a living from music isn't the only thing that kept me so driven for so long. Music has been my calling since I was 13, and has enhanced my life in ways that money never could. It saved my life after my mom passed away, as I wrote my way through my emotions. Even though I've accepted that I cannot make a living from it, I'm still passionate about it, and I'm very blessed to have true meaning to my life for almost 25 years.

It also has what is probably my funkiest track, "Love, Funk and Soul." I love performing this song, almost always directly after "Extra" because the tracks blend together so well.

The album name is what my mom originally wanted to name me. It is definitely my deepest and most personal album.

  • 1. Chillin' at the Papa

    chorus: I am just chillin' at the Papa

    Chillin' at the Papa with Michelle
    She's making my day go so well
    Even when I feel like I'm in Hell
    I am in Heaven
    From 11-7
    Or sometimes 8, 9 or 10
    Then again
    It could be worse
    I could spend all day listening to Matt curse

    I've got cardboard cuts on my hands from folding boxes
    Anton's spending the day chasing foxes
    And scammers
    And the
    People who aren't where they're supposed to be
    Saying "I'm sorry
    My roomate was on the phone."
    Or maybe they weren't even home
    Calling from their cell phone
    Waiting on the metro
    Hoping they get home
    Before we go
    On the deliv
    And I relive
    Every moment as I give
    Them the benefit of the doubt
    When they say that they were never out
    Of their room
    So I zoom
    Zoom, zoom, zoom
    Back to their dorm
    Faster than the norm
    Even though I can't stay warm
    Because there's a winter storm

    chorus:

    It's not a tumor
    It's my humor
    That keeps me going
    Oh and
    Michelle
    And all the others around me
    Who helped me overcome the adversity

    ...

    Michelle
    MacCracken said they didn't order
    And my last tip was 2 quarters
    On a $150 order
    Complain, complain, that's all we do
    That's ok 'cause you would too
    If you were lazy like me
    That's ok 'cause you'll always be
    The reason
    That I'm believing
    That I can make it
    'Cause I can take it
    Give me the phone and I'll break it
    Oh wait, that's someone else's job
    Who's kind of odd
    Hey Lindsay, turn off the water
    Angela's got a beautiful daughter
    Oops, I mean son
    Ummmmmmm
    I'm just trying to rhyme
    Is that a crime
    No, but cashing a bad check is
    And so is
    A DUI
    My oh my
    As I start to think about the things I'm bringing up
    I better just shut up

    Chorus:

  • 2. Playin' a Little Basketball

    Chorus: Playing a Little Basketball, Basketball X4

    Playing a little basketball one day
    When around the way
    I met a kid named BJ
    He said Hey
    Wanna play
    I said today's
    The day
    To play
    So I shot the three
    Missed it then grabbed the re-
    Bound
    Threw it down
    Never heard the sound
    Of the clock violating
    'Cause I was perpetrating
    Penetrating
    With my drives
    I came to win not just to survive
    BJ told me to kick a rap so
    I start off with turn on the stereo
    Kick up the bass
    [on the CD version, the chorus for Inventor kicks in here. it was supposed to just sample the part of the Inventor that says "turn on the stereo kick up the bass" but because the tempos were different, we couldn't do it at the time]
    Then I shot in his face
    Jumper was smooth as lace
    And Discovery school yard was the place
    But BJ was good too
    Made a couple threes and a couple twos
    So it was tied when I had to leave
    Before I left I retrieved
    His number to play
    Some day
    Again
    Before I left I jumped and grabbed the tin
    Of the rim
    Hung for a second
    Then left and
    Said later B
    That was the beginning of the multicultural team

    Chorus:

    I got home from school the next day
    And decided to ring up BJ
    To go play
    Some ball
    In no time at all
    We became the best pair of ballers in the school
    It was cool
    As we watched our opponents drool
    Over the tools
    That we used
    As we abused
    Fools
    On the court
    Me and my cohort
    Made the games short
    So we decided to play with the college men
    That's when
    I picked up the nickname Baby Bird
    Because people heard
    That I played like Larry Bird
    Taking people to school was easy
    It pleased me
    To see
    Me and BJ make threes
    Our opponents fell to their knees
    And begged us please
    Don't do this to me
    They'd flee
    When they saw me and the B
    Because his moves were quicker than Bruce Lee see
    Those days were easy
    I dunk so quickly
    You could not see me
    And I'd get free
    On the break and pull up for three
    People gave me
    High fives because we
    Always won easily
    Then we'd go home take a shower and go to sleep
    And we'd do that seven days a week

    Chorus:

    But today the game is different
    You have to be more than just physically gifted
    You gotta eat, gotta drink
    Gotta think
    The game
    Otherwise no one will know your name
    And they'll think you're lame
    Gotta have court vision
    And envision
    What's going to happen
    Next
    Have to pass every test
    Every possession's a war
    Never knowing what's in store
    Sometimes you have to score
    Sometimes you have to pass
    Sometimes you go fast
    And sometimes you slow down
    Sometimes you pull up and sometimes you throw down
    Gotta play hard to win
    Gotta play smart to win
    So begin
    To work on your game and work on your mind
    Work on your jays and work on your dimes
    And when you're done just chill to my rhymes
    I'm down for today but tomorrow's another day that I'll be

    Chorus:

  • 3. Wonder

    I believe we all wonder if we designed our own destiny
    And our lives turned out differently
    Who would we be
    Would we live happily
    Ever after
    With a life full of laughter
    Would every moment be as blissful as ignorance
    If we all maintained our innocence

    chorus: I believe we all wonder, and it'll be a wonder when we all believe in each other

    We all have something that we've been through
    And I believe in you
    I believe you'll climb out of debt
    Even if you can't see how yet
    You'll do fantastic
    After your lapse in a scholastic program
    There'll be no collapse of your synaptic codes and
    You can still walk with your peers
    And the tears that you cry
    Will tell you why
    Every moment was worth it
    No matter how much you were hurting
    While working
    And paying your own bills
    Harvesting the seeds that you've sown will
    Reap it's own rewards
    And they'll all be yours
    I believe you'll make it on Broadway
    And when you hear the song play
    You'll dance to your own steps
    Because you have what it takes
    To learn from your mistakes
    And when you fall all you need is a friendly hand
    To help you stand

    chorus:

    I believe we all wonder
    If we'll be taken under
    By the stress and the pressure
    Will it get you
    Down
    Are you the best around
    Or just the next in town
    Either way, don't go running for the exit now
    Don't worry about getting found
    By anyone but you
    When you see the view
    Of your own inner beauty
    It'll be the most amazing thing you'll ever see
    Now imagine
    That expanding
    Until the entire planet
    Is standing
    Hand in
    Hand and
    Helping each other grow
    It'll start off slow
    But soon you'll feel the flow
    Of energy ride through you in waves
    And we'll all be brave
    Because we won't be alone
    Together we'll have grown
    And after you let the hope in
    There'll be a moment
    When a friend needs you the most
    And you'll be a rock instead of a ghost
    Because a helping hand lifted you to higher ground
    This is the love that I have found
    And if only you believed like I believe, in miracles
    And could hear it all
    We could fly like a shooting star
    And take pride in who we are

    chorus:

    I believe we'll find the answers
    To beat cancer
    In my lifetime
    So that when our kids will write rhymes
    They won't be about the unnecessary pain
    Caused in vain
    We can take away from the strain
    Caused by fame
    And judging eyes
    Who love the lies
    I'm not telling you how to live
    I just want to give
    Words of encouragement
    And see what happens from the words I've sent
    Have you really heard them yet
    I believe in you
    And I believe it's true
    That we can call do what we love to do
    We just need a little love and a lot of help
    I believe in you, I hope you believe in yourself

    chorus:

  • 4. Extra

    I woke up today feeling a little rough
    Getting out of bed was a little too tough
    Dragging my way through a mundane routine
    So lame no dreams
    Just another day to make the means
    No power
    In my shower
    Or the hour
    That followed
    Just some more time that I borrowed
    Which is why I went into work
    Feeling like a jerk
    Until I heard a whisper
    Over my right shoulder
    The words that I heard
    Made me feel bolder
    I heard one friend say to another
    That I looked a little extra tall today
    And it took me all the way
    From dial up to broadband
    I looked down at my strong hands
    And felt like
    I could lift the world to new heights
    And do right
    Simply because someone saw in me
    Something in that moment that I did not see
    Until I looked through their eyes
    And it took me by surprise
    Because I'm already confident and self-assured
    But I was still lifted up by selfless words
    When they repeated them to me this is what I heard

    Chorus: You look extra today, extra tall, extra smart, extra talented, extra sexy, extra amazing!

    I went to sleep and dreamt of being a superhero
    More untouchable than Deniro
    But I wasn't a criminal
    Simply invincible
    Laser beams couldn't shoot me down
    I kept flying around
    Following the flight path of a bird
    And I know it sounds absurd
    But it's all from the words that I heard
    And if self-esteem
    Can manifest itself so powerfully in my dreams
    Then it seems
    That I should pass it onto you
    It's up to you to believe that it's true
    Then we all
    Can have it all
    And it can be so magical
    So when you need to brighten up your day
    Just look at yourself in the mirror and say

    Chorus:

    You are the reason why I sing

  • 5. No Ego

    It doesn't matter if I'm a better emcee
    Than Little Wayne
    Or Young Geezy
    MC Hammer
    Or Young MC
    Eminem
    Or friends of them
    That's not what music is about for me
    It's undoubtedly
    About expression and growth
    Exchanging aggression for hope
    And the lessons are dope
    Because my friends so close
    I'm not going to talk trash about anyone
    I'd rather have you send me love

    chorus: I make music with no ego, I make music for me to grow

    Music has saved my life
    And gave my nights
    Much more moonlight
    And make things right
    When everything seems wrong
    Whether I'm singing along
    Or writing my own
    It can heighten the zone
    Or lighten the tone
    When it's night the dome
    Or bright in my home
    I can see it all in a different spectrum
    When I feel the rhythm of the kick drum
    I'm riding the waves of the bass
    As it plays in the space
    I feel brave in this place
    When I heard an unpredictable riff
    Accompanied by a lyrical gift
    It's not about what I do for music
    It's about what it does for me
    That's why I choose to use it
    Once I've paid my dues it comes for free


    chorus:

    I live my life with no ego
    It's the only way for me to grow
    I mean, come on, I'm 31 years old and delivering pizzas
    Still asking if it's MasterCard or Visa
    How am I going to judge someone who dropped out of school
    I did the same thing so it would make me a fool
    Any gifts I have are just gifts
    I might get lucky and create a funky riff
    But I'm staying away from the junkie's spliff
    But I won't judge the junkie
    And feel the weight of the monkey
    That fact
    Would put on my back
    I won't attack
    And I'll rarely defend
    I won't pretend
    To be something I'm not
    I won't judge myself when I'm caught
    Making a mistake
    Just waiting to break
    I'll simply live for love and dreams
    Some that seem
    Impossible
    But I still won't stop at all
    Thank you for listening with no ego
    So we grow

    chorus: I live my life with no ego, I live my life so I can grow

  • 6. Open Mic

    Chorus: This is my open mic
    And I'm hopin' tonight
    That when I show you my light
    You'll understand what I write

    This is me
    Showing you my heart with my words
    I don't know where to start, but you may have heard
    That there's a stage and it's open to all
    I don't know how many of you are hoping I'll fall
    But, even if I fall all the way down
    To the ground
    And cut my face
    On the broken shards of my empty plate
    I'm still thankful I've ate
    And I have much respect
    For anyone who gets through the open mic check
    Because the first verse
    I dispersed
    In person
    Made me so nervous
    That I couldn't breathe through my dry mouth
    As my eyes dried out
    And gave me a headache
    But I knew I still didn't make
    A mistake
    When I opened the gate
    And changed my fate
    So now when I wake
    I'm really awake
    Never baked
    Never fried or burned out
    Thankful for what I've learned now
    No how matter how many times I've been turned down
    I've had to learn how
    To get past endless rejections
    Achieving stupendous reflections
    Through horrendous dejections
    By mal intended inflections
    To gain tremendous acceptions

    Chorus:

    This might be the first time that you hear this
    And it may not be the clearest
    Even if you get near this
    You may miss some lyrics
    And for you this is just a moment
    I don't own it
    I'm just hoping to rent
    Maybe open some vents
    So my words can circulate
    I don't know if you heard this late
    Or if you're even listening
    Sometimes I hear people whispering
    And it's louder
    Than the crowd or
    My monitors
    At home or on a tour
    I'm just rubbing together two sticks in a rain storm
    Trying to stay warm
    So I can light some fires
    Going from inspired to inspiring
    As I admire the fire rings
    And overcome the trials to acquire the finer things
    Hoping these moments will aggregate
    Until my fate
    is living my dreams
    While feeling the screams
    Drown out the whispers
    Growing more than whiskers
    Sleeping in my vehicle
    So I can see it all
    Sometimes I don't sleep at all
    I stay up for days
    Thinking of ways
    To bring in my gaze
    As I sing in a daze
    And I'm confident
    That my music is good enough
    And my skin is tough
    But walking up
    Three steps
    Still requires deep breaths
    As I perform for strangers
    Sometimes I have to overcome their anger
    Until they feel closer than neighbors
    I've overcome a lot of hatred
    As I've made this
    To the love that I'm feeling now
    And that love is much more valuable than money
    And I love that some of you love me
    Which is what I'm focused on
    And why I don't write hopeless songs
    Because when hope is gone
    So am I

    Chorus:

    I've had some magical times
    Better than classical rhymes
    And I don't need validation from the masses
    Waiting for it's like watching molasses
    Pass us
    By
    I don't need to be half as fly
    As the guy
    Eating pie
    In the sky
    I just want my feet in the dirt
    As I sleep in the earth
    I know what the love of people is worth
    Because I can't do it alone
    I only have two hands and a microphone
    Sometimes I try to call out but there's no dial tone
    So I need you to hear me and share me with friends
    I don't have the ends
    To make millions of ears bend
    So click share and hit send
    So when I ride off to the sunset
    I know I'm not done yet
    I'll keep riding through the night
    Guided by your light

    Chorus: ...
    When I show you my life, you'll understand what I write.

  • 7. Inventor

    Turn on the stereo, kick up the bass
    As I dunk in your face
    I don't waste
    Time
    As I kick this dope rhyme
    I drink my lemon lime
    Soda
    Wise like Yoda
    Drink my Coca-Cola
    Now I know a
    Man named Shaq
    He's got this funky dunk attack
    Better watch your back
    'Cause I'm like Bird
    Larry
    Can't compare me
    To another
    Brother
    Like no other
    I'm a great lover
    Like Chamberlin
    I came to win
    Battle me that's a sin
    Just like stealing
    I'm freewheeling
    Give me the cards and I'm dealing
    Four of a kind
    Don't mess with my mind
    'Cause I got you beat every time

  • 8. Intermission
  • 9. A Little About Me

    In case you're a little late getting to know me
    Let me show the
    Window to my soul
    So we can take a stroll
    We'll occasionally stall
    To knock down some more walls
    I used to be ridiculed
    By some kids in school
    Which probably makes me like you
    But they never got me down no matter how hard they tried to
    Because I liked being a nerd
    It wasn't until I started seeing with words
    That I heard
    That being smart was dumb
    And blazing skunk was fun
    By those standards I'm a bore
    I don't need to get high to soar
    If I had grown to be a man
    In Japan
    I'd likely be an otaku
    But I decided to stop to
    See things from every perspective
    And stayed reflective
    So I could see through the mirror
    To get a clearer
    Image of the universe
    And took the time to rehearse
    Before getting on stage
    Let my heart feel the words before flowing from the pen to the page
    Now I use the Yen to make change
    So I say Arrigato Gozaimasu
    So we can look forward not behind us
    Through the power of song
    I know we belong

    chorus: This is a little about me

    No one has touched my life as much as my mother
    And yes, I will always love her
    Even though she died half my life ago
    Which caused the tears to flow
    She'll always be my hero
    She's why I worked full time while taking 20 hours of classes
    Without the outcome being disastrous
    Like her I can work hard and still give love
    And I know that will always be enough
    That's why I've smiled through many of the tough
    Times during my journey
    Doing what I could to earn the
    Money to continue
    And was rocking empty venues
    Not ordering from the menu
    Because I could only afford peanut butter and bread
    Having no money caused me no dread, instead
    I loved everyday even when my bed
    Was the passenger seat of my car at a rest stop
    I was thinking nothing but blessed thoughts
    And I don't believe in growing old
    And don't care what I've been told
    Listening to old school hip-hop
    Thinking about what makes me hit stop
    Versus hit rewind
    To replay the verses in my mind
    Rehearsing as I find
    When cursing in a rhyme
    Increases my retention
    By piquing my attention
    Instead of hurting my ears
    I work in my fears
    So they don't come true
    As I run through
    What drives me
    And keeps my speed at 90

    Chorus:

    I care too much about other people
    To be driven by the root of all evil
    I keep an open mind
    And I hope in time
    My flows and rhymes
    Will show you my
    Heart and soul
    As my art extols
    Benefits
    I hope you're getting it
    I'd love to bridge the gap from first to last
    But first perhaps
    I should concentrate
    On making differences in small ways
    Being a good friend on all days
    Listening to my friends' problems
    Even if I have no clue how to solve them
    Taking risks as I put myself all in
    Because I'll definitely lose if I don't try
    And I won't die
    Without living for right now
    As I put the mic down
    I still have my life to live
    So I'll earn my right to give

  • 10. I Don't Need

    I don't need an entourage
    To build a big mirage
    That says I'm the king of the gods
    I don't want anyone to think I'm the best
    The thing is I'm blessed
    Because I have something that completes me
    Getting here wasn't easy
    But it was worth every scar
    The wounds have pumped blood into the heart of my guitar
    I don't care if I'm a star
    Because I already shine
    What I've created is mine
    And debt collectors can't take it from me
    Because I am free

    chorus: I Don't Need. I just want to invent.

    I don't need a hundred cars or a tiger in my basement
    I don't really want to be famous
    In some ways I prefer to be nameless
    But I'll never shun a fan who reaches out a hand
    Whether in thanks or in need
    Or to help me succeed
    If you've really listened, then you know who I am
    You've heard me grow as a man
    And I know that I can
    Be successful my way
    As I play
    The strings of my life
    And I sing with my might
    Truth is what I bring when I write
    And I ring in the night
    As images fling out of sight
    I recall memories as I kid
    Of the things that I did
    And some things that I said
    Sometimes I'd think with my head
    Other times I assumed I knew it all
    My ego grew too tall
    As I shot up 8 inches in 3 months
    It seems I grew up all at once
    But it was just physical
    I couldn't fit it all
    Together until it all fell apart
    And I had to restart
    Some pieces I left behind
    Others, I still have to find
    And that's something I'll do in time
    But I'm not in a rush
    I want to enjoy the touch
    And remember the hush
    The silence because no one was there
    Some moments weren't fair
    Or at least that's how it seemed
    But the sleepless nights made me appreciate dreams

    chorus:

    I don't need to be on a boat
    Or ski while I gloat
    I just want to see what I wrote
    And understand that I've created
    I don't want to be hated
    But it really doesn't hurt me
    It isn't worth the
    Energy to feed the hate
    Until it destroys what I create
    I just want to see fate
    Take me to the island
    As it holds my hand
    I want to breathe deep and appreciate the oxygen
    Blown in by forgotten wind
    There's no way I'll be stopping then
    Because my life will be a dream
    Better than any dramatic scene
    With panaromic sunsets
    And perfect songs we haven't sung yet
    Played harmonically by a supersonic drumset
    While the rhythm of life
    Makes it all alright
    And when I get there I'll heave eternal bliss
    From my journal's kiss
    And I'll earn all this
    By not being greedy
    I'd love for my music to feed me
    But if I ever sell a million CDs
    I'll give the excess to the needy
    And thank you all because you freed me

    chorus:

    Uhh yeah, that's right

  • 11. With Love We Find Hope

    Chorus: Such a touchy remote
    With love we find hope
    Richer than c notes
    As our dreams float
    On the wings of our spirit
    We can all feel it
    And we can all hear it
    In all of our lyrics

    With such a touchy remote, who's really in control?
    It doesn't really matter because we have soul
    And we will all roll
    As we just play ball
    And we will stay tall
    Because as we fall
    We'll pick each other up and dust each other off
    We'll show each other love and give another hug
    We'll get punched in the face, but won't waste another shrug
    And we'll climb mountains from the holes that we've dug
    You won't keep us down, we found another way
    And we will all say there's love here today

    chorus:

    It's humanity at its finest hour
    Forget the insanity of mindless power
    You can take away our homes and drain all our banks
    And we'll just say thanks
    For the chance to show strengths
    We will go lengths
    Like our forefathers
    You can take away our food and take away our water
    And we'll still have love for our sons and daughters
    Because we have passion that burns so much hotter
    Than anything you can throw at us
    You can show us trust
    And then take it away
    And we will still say
    There's love here today, there's still love here today

    This is our song. We are truly strong...so let's all sing along. This is our song.

    chorus:

  • 12. Low Stress Diet

    Family, friends, music and love
    Are all that I need because they're truly enough
    I'm on a low stress diet
    I won't guess I'll try it
    I'll go just buy it
    Because oh yes I fit
    I'm on a low stress diet
    Low stress diet

    It's curious where my heart is
    I'm worriless when I start this
    Wordiness in the darkness
    I won't hurry this 'cause I've got less
    Weight on my mind and my shoulders
    I've slowed time and I'm older
    But I feel younger than I did at 16
    When it seemed
    Like the sky was a little more grey
    Back in those days
    Now the air is cooler
    Like Ferris Bueller,
    Everyday seems like it's my day off
    I finally found a way to make things stay soft
    Instead of being hard constantly
    It's simple smart honesty
    To tell you that I've but back on my stress intake
    As I make my best mistakes
    Oh yes it takes
    A certain peace inside
    As my shirts increase in size
    To not feel hurt when she just tries
    To work in recent lies
    So she can steal when I've earned this week and cries
    To mentally manipulate my magnificent benevolence
    And display it in high def with wicked malevolence
    She tries stripping my innocence
    Only to find she no longer knows what it looks like
    She threw hers away the first time she shook tights
    For cash
    And she's made quite a stash
    I could be artifical
    And get superficial
    But I want something special
    So I dress up in just real
    Clothes when I'm at the bar
    Not looking for hoes to make me feel like a star
    But it's not my place to judge
    I just live my life through love
    That's why
    Yo I

    chorus: [I] am on a low stress diet. Yo just try it!

    I don't care if my ex talks
    And tells me that sex rocks
    I'm hanging out with the homeboys playing the XBox
    Because video games don't give me STDs
    Let me please
    Your ear drums
    As my fears come
    To fruition
    Only to find they can't afford the tuition
    Required to steal my knowledge
    Acquired in real life's college
    With desires to feel life fall in
    To the depths of the abyss they were created in
    I feel the breath from the kiss that was made in sin
    My love for truth makes me grin
    And I'll never be paid to win
    Because my mission's
    Not about competition
    It's about being me
    Being free
    And seeing the
    Best parts of my life
    I'll step up and grab the mic
    Reach out the world and I'll grab it tight
    Make love to my words as I have it right
    I know that it's a magic night
    I'll tell you it's pure as I gladly write
    I'll always use my pen if I have to fight
    I'll never resort to fisticuffs
    Because my wrist is tough
    As I find freedom in expression
    And my mind sees some thin impression
    Of the truth
    I've let go of age and I've gained my youth
    I turned the page and it's plainly proof
    That as long as I hang on to my dream it's reality
    As my eyes gleam with no fallacy

    chorus:

    I take all of my stress and I throw it like a javelin

  • 13. Time To Make It Happen

    My voice is my wisdom
    My choices, decisions
    Actions and lack of
    Have brought me to see what's wrong with my life
    So it's time to make it write
    Time to make it happen
    Time to fill my life with my music and my rapping
    My apartment's a mess
    And I'm feeling the stress
    Of being behind on bills
    And I've lost my will
    For a moment
    As my mind is roaming
    All over the universe
    As my thoughts disperse
    To everywhere except where they belong
    Time to relocate what makes me strong
    Time to face the facts and relax

    chorus: Time to make it right, time to make it happen
    Time to fill my life with my music and my rapping

    I'm 21, just ten years later
    Time to flip the switch on the fader
    I won't give into the dark side like Vader
    I refuse to feel envy
    Or jealousy
    Because I'm doing well you see
    I've been through more than one or two of these
    So I'll make the most of my opportunities
    Because I have a job that's great because of my potential
    To make my growth exponential
    And be so influential
    Letting others learn from what I've done
    Creating what I've become
    I have to accept
    That there's much beyond my control
    But I won't let anger devour my soul
    I won't let it be
    That fear controls my destiny
    Instead I choose extacy
    By accepting me
    I will work hard for what I love
    And I know that will be enough
    Even if everything else crumbles to dust
    I won't stumble from lust
    Instead I'll double my trust
    And love all I was
    As I embrace change
    And erase chains
    From the picture
    And switch hurt
    To pleasure
    And treasure
    Everything I've created
    Knowing that I've made it

    chorus: My life is filled with my music and my rapping
    My heart is filled with true love and passion
    My ears are filled with echoes from my laughing
    I will always make it right when I make it happen

  • 14. Love, Funk and Soul

    Chorus: This isn't sex, drugs, and rock'n'roll
    It's just love, funk and soul

    I don't care if you drink or not
    Until you think I'm hot
    I'm coming everyday giving it all I've got
    Waking up, driven by love
    Everyday, yes, now I'm giving enough
    It's not about living it up
    It's about staying grounded
    And hopefully leaving this place better than I found it
    It's not about drinking 'til I'm plastered
    Making everything go faster and faster
    It's about staying sober
    Taking it slower
    Breathing it in
    Feeling the grin
    Chillin' with friends
    And I'll do it again
    It's not about spending my money, it's about earning my time
    And learning to find
    All the simply joys
    Instead of being annoyed
    By the little things
    I won't let them give me brittle wings
    Instead I'll soar with the strength of an eagle
    And I choose to be full
    Spreading love to my people

    chorus:

    Right now
    I'll spend the night out
    But I'll remember that tomorrow matters too
    And I won't let the sorrow splatter through
    As I follow after you
    I'm not a wham, bam thank you ma'am
    One night stand
    I won't hit it and quit it
    Because I believe in commmitment
    We've been together for 2 decades now
    And I still feel like I'm getting this down
    Because it's building me up
    Filling my cup
    With the water I need
    Loving the air that I breathe
    And for this reason I believe

    chorus:

  • 15. RnR Birthday

    This song was completely freestyled.

  • 16. It's Good To Be Back

    It felt like I failed
    With the stealth of a snail
    And my health wasn't well
    As my wealth was impailed
    I left my hometown with high hopes
    It quickly turned into walking a tight a rope
    And then into a noose
    And I barely got loose
    Before the chair broke
    And the air choked
    From the flare's smoke
    From the signal I was sending you
    I couldn't even be pretending to
    Enjoy myself in the city
    It's a pity
    Everything that could go wrong did
    And I felt like a scared little kid
    Lost for the first time
    The city's heart beat had hurt mine
    And in turn I
    Had to run to what I truly love
    I jumped over the edge before I was shoved
    I didn't know how I would land
    Or if I could stand
    With broken bones
    So far from home
    Because I no longer had one
    But I still had to run
    Until I couldn't move
    And it got me back in the groove
    At least for a while
    But I had to face my trials
    Before I could truly smile
    I returned to face my failures and was greeted with solitude
    My heart beat through a hollow tube
    The echo ringing in my ears
    As I faced my fears
    Still wondering if I could make it here
    And I had to wait a year
    But the second time back was triumphant
    Once again my heart was thumphing
    But this time it was beating in rhythm
    To the feeling of winning
    I was grinning
    Knowing I had overcome everything
    I could hear my spirit sing
    Now hear it ring

    Chorus:

    Walking in the sun, feeling it beat on my skin
    Feeling the heat of the win
    Complete with the wind
    So I could compete once again
    Ever step I took was a little bit lighter
    Every sparkle in my eye was a little bit brighter
    I felt like a kid, but this time I was found
    Instead of footsteps, I glided on the ground
    I wasn't hiding from this town
    Instead I was getting down
    It no longer feels like I failed in the city
    And I no longer feel like it had failed me

    Chorus:

    It's great to be back!

  • 17. Do What You Love

    Do What You Love

    I'm ageless
    Because I've made this
    Decision
    That the only true wisdom
    I've ever acquired
    Is to do what I love and I've always desired
    To make music for a living
    To take thoughts and feelings that I'm given
    And translate them
    With fate's pen
    I lose a little in the translation
    I choose to live tall in this grand nation
    By that I mean I have a big heart
    That's how I choose to have my gigs start
    Even when my life is hit hard
    And I don't feel the least bit smart
    I'll stay positive
    Because I have lots to give
    And I get lots of love
    From my friends when they hug

    chorus:

    Let the sunshine in
    And the fun times win
    I love my grin
    When I look like a big goof
    Appearing aloof
    Because I love myself
    And passing that love onto everyone else
    As long as their intentions are good
    I love my friends and I know that I should
    Because they're always by my side when I need them
    Thank you Jared for making this weekend
    The best birthday possible
    The good times were unstoppable
    Because we overcame all the obstacles
    Of the so called free world
    Forgetting about the drama caused my stupid girls
    And idiotic boys
    Who treat women as toys
    We overcame the need to pay bills
    So we could make real
    Quality time in our friendship
    And that's a real gift
    It allowed us to do what we love to do
    Hanging out with friends and just being cool
    And for the first time ever I watched the inauguration
    I could feel restoration
    Of pride spread wide in our nation
    We truly have a leader who loves what he does
    And does what he loves
    Throughout my life I've been doing the same
    I don't care about being a household name
    And I'll never claim
    To have the strongest game
    Or the smoothest flow
    Because I love to feel the groove just flow
    As the truth lets go
    And it loves me
    So I see within and I'll never feel ugly
    Need someone to hold, just step on up and hug me
    And I'll try to calm your fears
    As I whisper in your ear

    chorus:

    Doing what you love may seem out of reach
    As dreams are not teached
    In the rhetoric of lesson plans
    That's why we need to lend a hand
    If you love to sing
    Just do your thing
    Step up, grab the mic
    Forget about the stage fright
    And the strange lights
    If you sing because you love it, then the audience will know
    And it's obvious you'll grow
    As you take deep breaths
    And make each step
    Just a little bit smaller than the one before
    Until you can step up and knock right on the door
    Get your foot in as soon as the door opens
    Don't waste moments
    Hoping it never closes
    Let them see the love in your eyes
    And they'll know you're not a lie
    Just do your thing because there is no try
    No matter what you love, just go out and do it
    Don't let other people screw with
    Your plans and your dreams
    Or your hands as they seem
    Like they're losing the strength to hang on
    Just do what you love and they'll always stay strong

    Chorus:

RnR Playdate is my live album! Yep, live, with a full band behind me. For the song, "Extra," I even play the guitar while rapping as the very talented band performs with me! Players include Jay Madewell (drums), Chris Barnett (bass), Todd The Fox (guitar), Brett Owsley (keyboard), Chris Witham (bass) and others. The live performances were recorded over multiple dates at One Eyed Jack's in Dayton, Ohio. They used to have a live band open mic called "RnR Playdate," which is where the name of the album comes from.

  • 1. Open Mic (feat. George Burl)

    Chorus: This is my open mic
    And I'm hopin' tonight
    That when I show you my light
    You'll understand what I write

    This is me
    Showing you my heart with my words
    I don't know where to start, but you may have heard
    That there's a stage and it's open to all
    I don't know how many of you are hoping I'll fall
    But, even if I fall all the way down
    To the ground
    And cut my face
    On the broken shards of my empty plate
    I'm still thankful I've ate
    And I have much respect
    For anyone who gets through the open mic check
    Because the first verse
    I dispersed
    In person
    Made me so nervous
    That I couldn't breathe through my dry mouth
    As my eyes dried out
    And gave me a headache
    But I knew I still didn't make
    A mistake
    When I opened the gate
    And changed my fate
    So now when I wake
    I'm really awake
    Never baked
    Never fried or burned out
    Thankful for what I've learned now
    No how matter how many times I've been turned down
    I've had to learn how
    To get past endless rejections
    Achieving stupendous reflections
    Through horrendous dejections
    By mal intended inflections
    To gain tremendous acceptions

    Chorus:

    This might be the first time that you hear this
    And it may not be the clearest
    Even if you get near this
    You may miss some lyrics
    And for you this is just a moment
    I don't own it
    I'm just hoping to rent
    Maybe open some vents
    So my words can circulate
    I don't know if you heard this late
    Or if you're even listening
    Sometimes I hear people whispering
    And it's louder
    Than the crowd or
    My monitors
    At home or on a tour
    I'm just rubbing together two sticks in a rain storm
    Trying to stay warm
    So I can light some fires
    Going from inspired to inspiring
    As I admire the fire rings
    And overcome the trials to acquire the finer things
    Hoping these moments will aggregate
    Until my fate
    is living my dreams
    While feeling the screams
    Drown out the whispers
    Growing more than whiskers
    Sleeping in my vehicle
    So I can see it all
    Sometimes I don't sleep at all
    I stay up for days
    Thinking of ways
    To bring in my gaze
    As I sing in a daze
    And I'm confident
    That my music is good enough
    And my skin is tough
    But walking up
    Three steps
    Still requires deep breaths
    As I perform for strangers
    Sometimes I have to overcome their anger
    Until they feel closer than neighbors
    I've overcome a lot of hatred
    As I've made this
    To the love that I'm feeling now
    And that love is much more valuable than money
    And I love that some of you love me
    Which is what I'm focused on
    And why I don't write hopeless songs
    Because when hope is gone
    So am I

    Chorus:

    I've had some magical times
    Better than classical rhymes
    And I don't need validation from the masses
    Waiting for it's like watching molasses
    Pass us
    By
    I don't need to be half as fly
    As the guy
    Eating pie
    In the sky
    I just want my feet in the dirt
    As I sleep in the earth
    I know what the love of people is worth
    Because I can't do it alone
    I only have two hands and a microphone
    Sometimes I try to call out but there's no dial tone
    So I need you to hear me and share me with friends
    I don't have the ends
    To make millions of ears bend
    So click share and hit send
    So when I ride off to the sunset
    I know I'm not done yet
    I'll keep riding through the night
    Guided by your light

    Chorus: ...
    When I show you my life, you'll understand what I write.

  • 2. With Love We Find Hope

    Chorus: Such a touchy remote
    With love we find hope
    Richer than c notes
    As our dreams float
    On the wings of our spirit
    We can all feel it
    And we can all hear it
    In all of our lyrics

    With such a touchy remote, who's really in control?
    It doesn't really matter because we have soul
    And we will all roll
    As we just play ball
    And we will stay tall
    Because as we fall
    We'll pick each other up and dust each other off
    We'll show each other love and give another hug
    We'll get punched in the face, but won't waste another shrug
    And we'll climb mountains from the holes that we've dug
    You won't keep us down, we found another way
    And we will all say there's love here today

    chorus:

    It's humanity at its finest hour
    Forget the insanity of mindless power
    You can take away our homes and drain all our banks
    And we'll just say thanks
    For the chance to show strengths
    We will go lengths
    Like our forefathers
    You can take away our food and take away our water
    And we'll still have love for our sons and daughters
    Because we have passion that burns so much hotter
    Than anything you can throw at us
    You can show us trust
    And then take it away
    And we will still say
    There's love here today, there's still love here today

    This is our song. We are truly strong...so let's all sing along. This is our song.

    chorus:

  • 3. I Can Feel The Love (feat. CB Scaphites)

    I will overcome this writer's block
    As I fight this clock
    And fit time into the tightest spot
    Mine is not
    The story that you normally hear
    Time to open our hearts with warm and free ears
    I won't give you a cold shoulder
    As I grow older
    I just have to let the ice melt
    And tell you how I've felt
    And use my passion
    To make all this happen
    For almost 20 years I've been rapping
    It never matters
    If I'm a better batter
    When the record shatters
    So long as I have respect for the game
    When I step to the plate what people expect from my name
    Is that I'll have left how I came
    I was taking a swing with a glimmer in my eye
    So it shimmers up so high
    That's why the fire never simmers on the side
    It always burns full steam
    So you'll dream
    As strongly as I do
    And I'm true
    When I tell you
    That the way
    I play
    Makes me feel the love
    I can feel the love
    I can feel the love

    Tour time
    Time to lay it all on the line
    And see if I can make a living off my mind
    And my rhymes
    See if time
    Is kind
    Or if I have to rewind
    To find
    My glory days
    So I can ignore the ways
    I've made mistakes in the past
    And make this last
    Sleeping in my car
    I don't care if I'm a star
    I'm just doing what I love
    And that's more than enough
    To overcome the rising odds
    And see their eyes and nods
    Watching the sparkle grow into a fire light
    They can see that my desire's right
    So they spare what they can
    With their loving hands

    I'm on tour and I can feel the love

    Sometimes I feel like I'm living the life of a Jedi without the abilities
    Silly me
    Time to see
    If I can move objects with my mind
    To find
    The strength to lift the ship from the dirt
    So we can remove the sith from the earth
    I'm back in my hometown
    And what I know now
    Is that everything has slowed down
    I'm back with friends
    So it begins again
    Feeling the record spin and then
    Feeling my heart beat
    Lighting the way down the dark street
    Letting my memories guide my way
    There's no way they'll die today
    I'm so happy that I might stay
    Until my passion brings me back for more
    Eventually I'll be back on tour
    But I'm home now and I can feel the love
    ...
    From my hometown I can feel the love

  • 4. Go With The Flow

    Chorus: Gotta go with the flow because I know when I'm low that it's time for me to take control of the show

    It's that time again
    Rhyming and
    I'm loving it
    Taking all the pressure from the world and I'm shoving it
    Back where it belongs
    So I'm flowing on
    And going strong
    Showing wrong
    Where it can stick its ugly head
    Even if I don't know what he said
    I'm not going back to bed
    I'm done sleeping
    But I'm still dreaming
    Because being is believing
    And I'm retrieving
    And receiving
    Everything that I need
    No matter how much I bleed
    It's not about the greed
    It's about the freedom
    So we can see some
    Brighter days
    And light the haze
    With the fighter's ways
    Overcoming all the problems
    As we're solving them
    Collectively
    As we share in the lessons we
    All had to learn
    As we get burned
    Sometimes we admire
    The fire
    As we aspire
    To use our own to shine
    The power is mine
    The power is yours
    The hour is sure
    To bring us back to ourselves to overcome
    So we run
    And connect it to the pass
    And we're collecting it fast
    As we step on the gas
    So we can get passed the past
    And amass the mass
    Critical
    Surpass the spiritual
    Level in our lyrical
    Expression
    I get the impression
    We can do anything
    When we sing
    In harmony
    With love is what you're arming me
    So our troubles can all fall harmlessly
    To the ground that surrounds us
    Changing from a mountain to ground dust
    As the sounds bust
    All the frustrations away
    So now we're loving today

    chorus:

    In this verse
    I can tell you that it gets worse
    Before it gets better
    I don't care about the cheddar
    So long as I have the bread
    To keep fed
    While still being hungry
    I know there are a few who truly love me
    That's what I'm using as my guide
    Even when my future hides
    Behind the darkness of right now
    With the lights out
    And the time's up
    No more water in my cup
    So I'm creating my own
    As I strengthen the stone
    Turning it into an everlasting elixir
    A mixture of life
    It's pure tonight
    And surely right
    Filling it up from the well
    Because that's how we're doing
    Nothing can ruin
    This moment of hope
    Because the show is so dope
    No more walking over the rope
    Because I've gained my balance to walk the line
    All is kind
    Flawless time

  • 5. This Is The League

    It's been a long offseason
    Time to give reasons
    To the coach
    Why my approach
    To training
    Is why I came in
    Better
    Faster
    Hungrier
    Stronger
    So I can play longer
    Sacrificing everything I can for the team
    Because we all share in the same dream
    To hoist that trophy
    With poise that only
    Champions are made of

    chorus: This is the league and this is my dream

    There may not be glory
    In the story
    Of my training regimen
    To develop this specimen
    I can't be hesitant
    Or reticent
    I have to train to win
    Overcome the pain and then
    Doing things others see as impossible
    So I can be unstoppable
    Watching film and studying the playbook
    Hey look
    I found a weakness to exploit
    Gotta teach this to the boys
    Because they're like my family
    Bringing out the man in me
    So I can turn into a beast
    And unleash
    My fury
    Better hurry
    There's no time to waste
    Gotta pick up the pace
    Because the speed in the league is lightning quick
    With frightening hits
    Gotta watch out as the timing gets
    Tighter and tighter
    As we're walking the wire
    And fly a bit higher
    As we try to aspire
    To the level of champion
    The regular season has begun

    chorus:

    I can feel the collective heartbeat of the fanbase
    And taste
    Victory
    When we see
    The home crowd
    Go loud
    During introductions
    The whole world forgetting about their other functions
    And luncheons
    Millions of eyes
    On the prize
    As we rise
    To the national anthem
    Fandom
    And pandemonium
    Ensue
    Rocking this venue
    What we came to do
    Is win for you
    From the first snap
    To the last clap
    Everyone's throwing their hands back
    Cheering every score and asking for more
    This is what we came for
    Hitting the hole and hitting it hard
    Getting the goal with inches and yards
    One win turns in
    To a winning season
    Giving our fans a reason
    To believe in
    Everything we do
    As we play through
    Injuries
    And adversity
    As our fans nervously
    Hold their breath
    'Til we make it to sudden death

    chorus:

    Everything escalates
    And my heartbeat accelerates
    As I anticipate
    And listen to great debates
    In the weeks leading up to the championship game
    Every single name's
    A celebrity
    Using their identity
    To brand their opinions
    To millions
    Watching every highlight
    They're wondering if I might
    Be in over my head
    Because of something I said
    Taken completely out of context
    It's on next
    When we get past the spectacle
    We'll let it all
    Be decided on the field
    Where we'll refuse to yield
    It's finally time for the final kickoff
    There's no time for anyone to hit soft
    Every moment feels like a lifetime
    As the lights shine
    No time to remember how we got here
    It's all clear
    As the kickoff is returned
    And we learn
    If our sacrifice has been enough
    Both sides are tough
    We all want it with every ounce of our blood, sweat and tears
    We've all got our scars from getting here
    There's no time to let in fears
    There's only time to be our best
    And beat our test
    As we hold the trophy to the sky
    We know right now we can fly

  • 6. Livin'

    chorus: I'm rapping and I'm dancing and I'm sweating and I'm singing
    and I'm living

    I started rapping in '92
    I opened up my mind to you
    And since that time it's true
    I love music with all of my soul
    Making a living from it is a major goal
    One I have not accomplished yet
    I still have fuel for my fire like the 737 jet
    That I talked about
    Knocking out
    All the doubts
    From the moment I started the multi-culturals
    To the times I've toured all around the world
    Music has been what I'm passionate about
    And I'm happy on this route
    Whether I'm sleeping in my car
    Or playing in dive bars
    I feel like a shining star
    I feel like I'm shining real bright
    When my light
    Hits the night
    Because you're all shining with me
    Making it heavenly
    When you're sending me
    To every place I want to be
    Thank you all for making me free
    That's why this is CD number 11
    I'm living this heaven
    On earth
    With my feet on the dirt
    And my head in the clouds
    I feel so proud
    When you get loud
    And we all get down
    Loving the night on the town
    With the sounds
    That I love
    I can never get enough
    And I don't need drugs
    Because there's no way they'd get me this high
    Every part of me feels alive
    When I'm up on the stage
    Or filling the page
    I'm creating and I'm building
    And I'm able and I'm willing
    To give you every part of me
    Thank you all for making me free

    Chorus:

    Going back to 2002
    Leaving my hometown to do this for you
    I played 9 shows
    After sending out over 200 demos
    Because I had a dream that wouldn't let go
    Even though I had a BS in business
    This is
    My dream
    I did my best to burst on the scene
    Did a show in Jacksonville, FLA
    I had to be home the very next day
    And I'm blessed by the way
    That show turned out
    It was a tremendous turn out
    One that I hope to once again earn now
    2004 was the year of Stadium
    It gave me some
    Incredible moments to hang on to for my journey
    My fellow musicians became a small family
    From Jason to James to Rideout
    There was a new place for fame to hide out
    These precious moments are mine now
    I won't save them in a bottle
    I'll let them go full throttle
    In 2004, I went on a mini-tour
    And hit up the east village
    The memory of that night still lives
    In my heart and helps it beat
    From the stage I had the best seat
    In the house
    Time will never douse
    The fire and desire that I possess
    These are just some of the best
    Moments
    And I own them
    In 2006
    I took all sorts of pics
    During my 17 days in a minivan
    I want to thank every fan
    For buying CDs to support my gas tank
    There's no way I can truly show thanks

    Chorus:

    Now it's time to build once again
    Every moment I'm filling in
    And building grins
    Supported by my passion and love
    I'm sharing handshakes and hugs
    Driving down to Cincinnati
    Showing everyone that I want this badly
    Getting on stage at MOTR
    For 3 songs I feel like a star
    From Kelsey to Lucas to Donna Jay
    You are the ones who make my day
    I know that I'm going the right way
    I'm sorry I had to go but I'm back to play
    The very next day
    I get to Mainstay
    Everyone there has me feeling the same way
    Sometimes I make the drive to Dayton
    Other weeks I get to stay in
    My hometown
    Where everybody gets down
    Because open mic is back again
    The same one I used to rap in
    With feet stomping and hands clapping
    All the while I feel like laughing
    These are the smiles
    That take me the next miles

    chorus:

  • 7. Wonder Years

    There’s a certain odd empty feeling
    It has me reeling
    Breathing
    Heavy, taking in the deep
    Going past the shallow
    Onto tomorrow
    To be fulfilled like it was yesterday
    When all I had to do was play
    There were no sad truths to get in the way
    There wasn’t hope; I didn’t need it
    I already lived like I was dreaming
    Coming home from school Was so cool
    Hanging out with my best friend in the backyard
    Before I drove a black car
    Or even knew how to
    I didn’t need cell phones to find you
    The world was small enough that home was never far
    I sometimes miss knowing exactly where you are
    My street was my universe
    I didn’t know what it was like to hurt
    And I never cursed
    I also didn’t realize how blessed I was
    I already had the best of love
    We already had the best of us
    Now there’s a restless buzz
    Reverberating in the cave of my chest
    I gave it my best
    Without even trying
    I had no use for lying
    There were no egg shells to walk on
    Just solid ground so we could talk on
    And on
    And it was never all gone
    We had an endless supply
    You and I
    No need to cry
    Because we had it all
    Standing tall
    Shoulder to shoulder
    But we got older
    We grew up
    We started to want too much
    I know I did anyway
    All I want now is to live today
    Like I’m a kid, okay?
    Where everything is wondrous
    And the applause are thunderous
    Because our imagination was our amplifier
    And we could turn it up higher
    Way past eleven
    Hearing the cheering from the heavens
    We had our own stage
    And wrote our own plays
    We filled our own page
    Until we turned it
    And we learned it
    Wasn’t easy
    But I know you still believe in me
    You don’t have to encourage me with your voice
    You don’t even have a choice
    Even if you use sarcasm
    Nothing can cause a chasm
    Between us
    We believed once
    Always and forever
    We won’t live to see never
    These are ties that can’t be severed
    Even as the world grows
    I will let the world know
    How much you mean to me
    And we will see it be
    How it once was, almost
    OK, so I’ve let it go
    I know
    The world moves on
    But we’ll be too strong
    And we’ll write a new song
    It won’t be long
    ‘Til we’re gone
    But while I’m here
    I’ll hold onto the wonder years

  • 8. Driven By Passion

    Some people still ask me if I'm serious or if I'm messing around
    By now I hope that you've found
    My music is a reflection of life
    Not a selection of lies
    I'm earning and working with an ethic that's older than I am
    And an intellect strong enough to get me into the tri-lambs
    I am educated, dedicated and motivated
    And Yes I've made it
    I feel blessed and successful
    Through tests that are stressful
    And I want to thank all the fans
    Who understand
    That I'm seriously dedicated to my craft
    It doesn't mean I've forgotten how to laugh
    I'm generally overwhelmingly positive
    That's how I gotta live
    It's the only way that makes sense to me
    Why would I choose to live my life in misery
    As if a serious artist isn't allowed to be funny
    A delirious artisan's bouncing checks for his bunnies
    Because they're willing to have sex for his money
    And he's not being sexist
    We just have a different code of ethics
    What happens next is
    Open to interpretation
    Use your imagination
    And life experience
    To determine if it's serious

    chorus: I'm driven by passion

    I have no sense of entitlement
    And don't care how my title went
    Because I don't need to be the champion
    I know I still can be young
    There's a difference between anger and passion sung
    As if my life depended on it because it does
    And the one depending on it is me
    Not the critic listening to the CD
    As if he knew what was going on in my mind
    And the timing of my rhymes
    And I don't care what they have to say
    Because they won't share the same way
    That I do
    I'll open up and be true
    From my own point of view
    I've got the vocal theatrics
    To choke all the tactics
    Like a marath'damane
    All they can do is stare at the flame
    They can't actually embrace the void
    I won't avoid
    My responsibilities
    I'll handle them honorably
    And honestly
    Because they truly matter to me
    Are you a lyrical wizard or a critical witch
    With a cynical switch
    That you never shut off
    That's not me so you can call me soft
    Because well I am
    I'm supportive of my friends
    And just because I don't have the ends
    There's no reason to be mean
    I follow my dreams
    So you cannot call me average
    Some of these critics don't know what the half is
    When I cross over the median
    Traveling via Expedia
    Cleaning up my Experian
    Or rolling down the river on my Kayak
    That's why it's a big deal when I'm back
    Because my path
    Is challenging to navigate
    Sometimes I have to wait
    While I dance with fate

    chorus:

    It's time to pick up the intensity
    Because the energy
    You're sending me
    Is filling my melodies
    With memories

    Sometimes my songs are atonal and discordant
    But that's not what kept me up 'til this morning
    Working on a song past noon
    Making my heart go boom
    Music has taken me from the bottom of the abyss
    To feeling like I had the world's first kiss
    So I owe it this
    What I speak from my lips
    Comes from me
    And it will always me
    My thoughts, my heart and my passion
    That's why I'm still driven after 20 years of rapping
    And 13 years of playing the drums, bass, guitar and keyboard
    I hope it strikes more than 3 chords
    And it frees your
    Sense of expression the way it has mine
    Time after time after time after line after rhyme from my mind
    Through the pen to the paper as I scribble these lyrics
    Or record them freestyle so I can hear it
    Before writing it down
    And miking the sound
    That turn every ounce of pain, joy, happiness and laughter
    From every chapter
    Of my life
    Into what you're hearing tonight

  • 9. It's Good To Be Back

    It felt like I failed
    With the stealth of a snail
    And my health wasn't well
    As my wealth was impailed
    I left my hometown with high hopes
    It quickly turned into walking a tight a rope
    And then into a noose
    And I barely got loose
    Before the chair broke
    And the air choked
    From the flare's smoke
    From the signal I was sending you
    I couldn't even be pretending to
    Enjoy myself in the city
    It's a pity
    Everything that could go wrong did
    And I felt like a scared little kid
    Lost for the first time
    The city's heart beat had hurt mine
    And in turn I
    Had to run to what I truly love
    I jumped over the edge before I was shoved
    I didn't know how I would land
    Or if I could stand
    With broken bones
    So far from home
    Because I no longer had one
    But I still had to run
    Until I couldn't move
    And it got me back in the groove
    At least for a while
    But I had to face my trials
    Before I could truly smile
    I returned to face my failures and was greeted with solitude
    My heart beat through a hollow tube
    The echo ringing in my ears
    As I faced my fears
    Still wondering if I could make it here
    And I had to wait a year
    But the second time back was triumphant
    Once again my heart was thumphing
    But this time it was beating in rhythm
    To the feeling of winning
    I was grinning
    Knowing I had overcome everything
    I could hear my spirit sing
    Now hear it ring

    Chorus:

    Walking in the sun, feeling it beat on my skin
    Feeling the heat of the win
    Complete with the wind
    So I could compete once again
    Ever step I took was a little bit lighter
    Every sparkle in my eye was a little bit brighter
    I felt like a kid, but this time I was found
    Instead of footsteps, I glided on the ground
    I wasn't hiding from this town
    Instead I was getting down
    It no longer feels like I failed in the city
    And I no longer feel like it had failed me

    Chorus:

    It's great to be back!

  • 10. Extra

    I woke up today feeling a little rough
    Getting out of bed was a little too tough
    Dragging my way through a mundane routine
    So lame no dreams
    Just another day to make the means
    No power
    In my shower
    Or the hour
    That followed
    Just some more time that I borrowed
    Which is why I went into work
    Feeling like a jerk
    Until I heard a whisper
    Over my right shoulder
    The words that I heard
    Made me feel bolder
    I heard one friend say to another
    That I looked a little extra tall today
    And it took me all the way
    From dial up to broadband
    I looked down at my strong hands
    And felt like
    I could lift the world to new heights
    And do right
    Simply because someone saw in me
    Something in that moment that I did not see
    Until I looked through their eyes
    And it took me by surprise
    Because I'm already confident and self-assured
    But I was still lifted up by selfless words
    When they repeated them to me this is what I heard

    Chorus: You look extra today, extra tall, extra smart, extra talented, extra sexy, extra amazing!

    I went to sleep and dreamt of being a superhero
    More untouchable than Deniro
    But I wasn't a criminal
    Simply invincible
    Laser beams couldn't shoot me down
    I kept flying around
    Following the flight path of a bird
    And I know it sounds absurd
    But it's all from the words that I heard
    And if self-esteem
    Can manifest itself so powerfully in my dreams
    Then it seems
    That I should pass it onto you
    It's up to you to believe that it's true
    Then we all
    Can have it all
    And it can be so magical
    So when you need to brighten up your day
    Just look at yourself in the mirror and say

    Chorus:

    You are the reason why I sing

M'' (pronounced M Double Prime, and easily referred to as M) is Mission Man's 11th studio album. 11 is the 5th prime number, and therefore a double prime, as 5 is also prime. The most popular song is "Extra," which is track 10. "You look extra today! Extra tall, extra smart, extra talented, extra sexy, extra amazing!"

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  • 1. wonder

    I believe we all wonder if we designed our own destiny
    And our lives turned out differently
    Who would we be
    Would we live happily
    Ever after
    With a life full of laughter
    Would every moment be as blissful as ignorance
    If we all maintained our innocence

    chorus: I believe we all wonder, and it'll be a wonder when we all believe in each other

    We all have something that we've been through
    And I believe in you
    I believe you'll climb out of debt
    Even if you can't see how yet
    You'll do fantastic
    After your lapse in a scholastic program
    There'll be no collapse of your synaptic codes and
    You can still walk with your peers
    And the tears that you cry
    Will tell you why
    Every moment was worth it
    No matter how much you were hurting
    While working
    And paying your own bills
    Harvesting the seeds that you've sown will
    Reap it's own rewards
    And they'll all be yours
    I believe you'll make it on Broadway
    And when you hear the song play
    You'll dance to your own steps
    Because you have what it takes
    To learn from your mistakes
    And when you fall all you need is a friendly hand
    To help you stand

    chorus:

    I believe we all wonder
    If we'll be taken under
    By the stress and the pressure
    Will it get you
    Down
    Are you the best around
    Or just the next in town
    Either way, don't go running for the exit now
    Don't worry about getting found
    By anyone but you
    When you see the view
    Of your own inner beauty
    It'll be the most amazing thing you'll ever see
    Now imagine
    That expanding
    Until the entire planet
    Is standing
    Hand in
    Hand and
    Helping each other grow
    It'll start off slow
    But soon you'll feel the flow
    Of energy ride through you in waves
    And we'll all be brave
    Because we won't be alone
    Together we'll have grown
    And after you let the hope in
    There'll be a moment
    When a friend needs you the most
    And you'll be a rock instead of a ghost
    Because a helping hand lifted you to higher ground
    This is the love that I have found
    And if only you believed like I believe, in miracles
    And could hear it all
    We could fly like a shooting star
    And take pride in who we are

    chorus:

    I believe we'll find the answers
    To beat cancer
    In my lifetime
    So that when our kids will write rhymes
    They won't be about the unnecessary pain
    Caused in vain
    We can take away from the strain
    Caused by fame
    And judging eyes
    Who love the lies
    I'm not telling you how to live
    I just want to give
    Words of encouragement
    And see what happens from the words I've sent
    Have you really heard them yet
    I believe in you
    And I believe it's true
    That we can call do what we love to do
    We just need a little love and a lot of help
    I believe in you, I hope you believe in yourself

    chorus:

  • 2. living the dream

    I'm 13 years old and I'm balling with the college kids
    Showing them what knowledge is
    Dropping it like dimes
    My rhymes
    Are on time
    And I'm commiting crimes
    On the court
    Picking their pockets and stealing their corks
    From the champagne bubbly
    I may just be a kid, but that man's game loves me
    And I've got mad aim from 3
    I'm like an assassin
    With passing
    So fasten
    Your seat belts
    Because my speed melts
    And I don't need help
    Covering my man
    Or sending in a jam
    I'm 6'3" and I fly like an eagle
    Is it just me, or do I have no equal
    I won't be satisfied with one ring, I want sequels
    Like Larry Legend's
    You'll find Gary's presence
    Is the essence
    Of greatness
    But to see me in the NBA, you'll need patience
    Because I'm still 5 years away
    Until that day
    My peers will pay
    My partner in crime is scoring
    Like Jordan
    When we play together, it's an assured win
    I always deliver
    And send shivers
    Down your spine
    Tickling the twine
    In the middle of a rhyme
    Hitting that dagger
    With swagger
    Go ahead, place your wagers
    Because there's no risk
    The nets always swish
    When I flip my wrist
    I am the legend and he is the myth

    chorus: I'm living the life, and living the dream
    I'm taking flight, and making it seem easy

    I'm 16 years old
    And revising my goals
    Basketball still fills my soul
    But I'm looking for it to play a different role
    I'm trying to have it pay for college
    So instead of dropping it, I can pick up knowledge
    And increase the size of the small ledge
    And shorten the height of the tall edge
    I think I have a chance
    To play in the big dance
    So I'm going to take it and make it work
    I'm going to stay and play through the hurt
    I broke my ankle when I tripped over a teammate
    I hope it's just a bump in the path that my dream takes
    A little anecdote for the screenplay
    Because before this I could really sky
    My hands were over 11 feet high
    When I leapt from the ground
    But now I've come back down
    And I still love the sound
    Of the basketball being dribbled in rhythm
    And I'm bless with all that I'm given
    It's what makes life worth living
    Trying to focus on the positive
    So I have a lot to give
    When I write the next scene
    Because it may be the end of this dream

    chorus: I'm living the life and living the dream
    Sometimes it doesn't seem so easy

    I'm in my thirties now
    Not balling out
    Or hauling down
    Rebounds
    I'm just making these sounds
    And as my life has been rewound
    I've found
    That how I remember it isn't always how it was
    And my life isn't defined by what I've done
    It's what I'm doing now
    That really counts
    And I still have bounce
    To the ounce
    But I'm jumping up and down
    For a different dream
    I care less about the gifted teams
    And more about the capacity for passion
    I'm bored by the audacity of fashion
    I won't let my life be defined by appearance
    When you hear this
    It's the sincerest
    Form of expression
    I won't let the stress win
    Just letting the best in
    Living with a fresh grin
    It's not a million dollar smile
    On a brilliant scholared child
    It's just one
    That comes
    From living my dreams
    Life is even better than it seems
    It's not about the game
    Or the fame
    Or the fortune
    I don't need to live with the biggest portions
    I'm satiated with substance
    I've made it and I love this
    I don't care about the judges
    Who don't know what love is
    I don't care about the dollars, my life makes sense
    When my mic stays blessed
    And my rhyme play's fresh
    And my mind gains rest
    By being at peace
    And feeling at ease
    I hope you feel it with me

    chorus: I'm living the life and living the dream
    Loving it right makes it seem easy

  • 3. i need a good girl

    chorus: I'm not looking for a girl with a man
    I'm not looking for a one night stand I need a good girl

    I need a girl with a good heart
    That's where love should start
    If it's going to last forever
    I don't want her to render
    My heart useless
    As I choose this
    New miss
    To kiss
    In true bliss
    With blue lips
    Because she takes my breath away
    And she leaves me with nothing left to say
    Because as hearts pound
    They drown
    The sound
    Of our words
    That's when I know our love is pure
    And I'm sure
    That we can transcend
    As our hands bend
    To pull us up to the highest ground
    So we can hear all the finest sounds
    And we see beauty from above
    As the world illuminates in love

    chorus:

    I'm not going to hate
    If you'd rather have sex than just date
    But you can move onto the next mate
    Because with me, you'll have to wait
    You'll have take time
    To get to know my mind
    My heart and my soul
    Before I give you control
    Of my body
    I don't need a hottie
    But her spirit better be smoking
    To maintain the fire in my ocean
    And keep the future wide open
    As we explore the cosmos
    And hit on time even during the off notes
    She doesn't have to love my music
    But she does have to listen to it
    At least once
    She has to make it through 31 Hours Til What
    So she can begin to understand my depths
    And breathe more than shallow breaths
    She has to be there to have fun with
    And stick around long enough to grow young with

    chorus:

    I don't care about your hair color
    I need you to be a fair lover
    I will sacrifice and listen to your needs
    Even if I can't fix what causes your soul to bleed
    But I need you to hear me too
    So you can help steer me through
    The roughest parts of my road
    I have the strength to carry a large load
    For all my life I've done it on my own
    I have the courage to be alone
    But if we're together, I need you to stand by me
    I won't search for you if you abandon
    But if you're true
    I'll stand by you
    And I'll give my hand to you
    And when I'm halfway around the world
    I still want you to be my girl
    I looking for honesty
    So promise
    And please don't lie
    I want to see what I love when I look in those eyes

    chorus:

  • 4. starting over

    Chorus: We all have to start over sometime, somewhere. Once there, how do we know where to go?

    Today another friend has moved on
    And it makes me think about all who've gone
    Some I haven't heard from since
    One or two I should have kissed
    Some I've forgotten and some I really miss
    The most recent
    Left for good reason
    She's going out to experience life
    And it's turned today into a serious night
    And I'm alone, cleaning my apartment
    Wondering what's going to start next
    Because this is another beginning
    And I'm listening
    To the future, but my ear sight's a little cloudy
    Fear might make me drowsy
    This clear night shapes the town we
    Found each other in
    And I'm wondering
    As I stare at the silhouette
    If it's too early to hit the pillow yet
    But I won't give into the gravity
    Of depravity
    I will gladly see
    That I have to be
    Going forward
    Until those no more words
    Then I can just feel
    What I know is real

    chorus:

    I've moved on many times myself
    And seen the struggle in someone else
    They wish me luck, but hate saying goodbye
    Could I
    Be the good guy
    By leaving my friends
    Not knowing if I'd see them again
    Was I being selfish
    With my well wish
    I had to follow my heart and dreams
    And they both got ripped apart at the seems
    I couldn't see through the gleam
    Reflecting off my tears
    Rejecting all the fears
    And expecting all the years
    Ahead of me
    To be the best I'd see
    As the future filled with my present with hope
    I wonder how those in my past will cope
    Leaving without a rope
    Or a safety net
    It made me sweat
    But it had not made me crazy yet
    Because I was too excited
    To hide it
    I had to try it
    I had to take the leap
    That would make me weap
    Whether tears of joy, or tears of sorrow
    I couldn't know until tomorrow
    Had become yesterday
    So I could feel blessed today
    Until my friend went away
    While I get to stay
    And start over again
    As I go for the win
    I know that I'll spin
    The wheel of fate many more times
    As I feel the weight send towards mine
    So I breathe deep
    And try to keep
    My balance
    Knowing that it shall hinge
    On more than a stripped rusted screw
    Building upon what I knew
    And overcoming what I don't
    I won't
    Stop starting
    To matter how hard things
    Seem to be
    My tears will always reflect the gleam in me

    chorus:

  • 5. living to the rhythm

    You can leave it or take it
    But never try to change it
    I am who I am
    And I love who I am
    There are few things I understand
    But before I take my lover's hand
    I have to discover what drives me
    So I can choose wisely
    I don't know what else I'd want for a career
    And I probably won't figure it out by the end of this year
    But I know I love doing this
    That's why I have no money, but I'm already rich
    Bills are just bills and skills are just skills
    Passion makes it impossible to destroy my will but still
    I have moments of uncertainty
    And I'm hoping that you'll learn from me
    Sitting on a corner bench at midnight
    Thinking about this life
    Wondering if I'm living it right
    When looking at this sight
    I don't know how I'd see it if music wasn't my bright lit star
    I'm not sure how I would've survived this far
    If were driven by the shiny cars
    What would be my destination
    In this restless nation
    I have my education
    But I haven't found the answers
    I'm creating rhythms and hoping for the dancers
    Because I don't know the next steps
    So the one I'm taking now needs to be the best yet
    It can be subtle
    Or a scuttle
    With a shuttle
    But all my moves
    Have to make me groove
    They don't have to be smooth
    But they do have to soothe
    I've got nothing to prove
    I just want to test my theories
    So dance along if you hear me

    Chorus: I'm living to the rhythm of the night

    Trying to see through the world to the other side
    Hoping x-ray vision doesn't leave me blind
    To what's right in front of me
    Looking at it lovingly
    When I see
    What I want to be
    Trying to ignore the politics
    So I don't call it quits
    Before it even starts
    So I can keep a beating heart
    Aiming but I can't see the dart
    Only the target
    Hoping for a smart hit
    When throwing in the darkness
    Seeing where the spark's lit
    Knowing that my heart gets
    Hit the hardest
    Hearing if the bard is
    Playing my song
    So I can sing along
    This tavern
    May as well be a cavern
    I'm leaving with a bad burn
    From all I've had to learn
    Before I find the way out
    I run across some stray doubts
    Ones that won't stay down
    No matter how loud I played sounds
    I still try to put a dollar in the jukebox
    Take my cue and shoot shots
    But no matter how many games I win
    And how many songs I spin
    The voices keep on creeping in
    Where they don't belong
    So I try another song
    But it still seems wrong
    Looking for a solution before closing time
    But I'm going blind
    From trying to see too much
    Telling the doubts to please just hush
    There's no need to rush
    But I'm still losing my patience
    Hoping for some ancient
    Wisdom to cure what ails me
    Learning to ignore the people that have failed me
    Because I know I have failed them too
    I need to learn to stop trying and just do
    So I put down my cue and walk out the door
    Looking for something I've looked for before

    chorus:

    Walking around town
    Searching for something I've never found
    No matter how many times I've looked
    I feel like I keep reading the same chapter in this book
    And I'm hooked
    Another night passing through the throngs
    Seeing all kinds of places that I don't belong
    And all sorts of people who get me wrong
    Looking up at the moon
    Wondering if I'll find it soon
    Staring up at the beauty of the stars
    It could be right in front of me but feel so far
    So I keep walking
    And hear the occasional deep talking
    But I mainly just hear clips and phrases
    I see someone make a mistake, wondering how to erase it
    It makes me think about the life I've led
    Wondering if it would have been better if I had left somethings unsaid
    Focusing more on missed opportunities
    And empty promises with a list of all they do for me
    I feel the still night air
    And still I care
    But my search ends
    When I get a text from a friend
    Saying he sees the same trends
    As the other nights he spends
    I reply and hit send
    Telling him I haven't found love
    But I'll settle for some grub
    So now we're mowing down at 4 am
    Wondering if we'll see any more mayhem
    When we run out of thoughts what do we say then
    We replay them
    Until we're at ease for the night
    We part ways feeling alright
    And I close my eyes at first light

    chorus:

  • 6. i had to

    chorus: I went there because I had to
    I had to learn the bad truths
    To appreciate the good ones
    And learn to love what would come

    I went deep, but I didn't want to stay that low
    So I had to slow my flow
    And show my glow
    You probably already know
    About my mom
    And how she's been gone
    Since I was a child
    With a funny smile
    I've lived more than half my life without her
    And let the questions get louder
    Until I could fight through pain
    And speak through the strain
    While I see through the rain
    I tore apart
    My apathetic heart
    My atheistic fears wouldn't let it start
    I couldn't let it stop again
    And to use hip-hop to grin
    Through crooked teeth and numb eyes
    I was sick of all the dumb lies
    I wanted to be a fun guy
    But I never turned to drugs
    Even while I failed to learn to trust
    I faced my battles mostly alone
    Because I didn't want to bring others to the unhappy home
    Inside of me
    While I tried to be
    Alive and free
    I was scared of what I might just see
    And I didn't want to show it
    So I had to grow quick
    I aged 15 years overnight
    Because I couldn't show the fright
    I had to stow it tight
    So it wouldn't get loose
    And expose the refuse
    I had to clean it up slowly
    Before people could get to know me

    chorus:

    I fell in love, but she didn't fall with me
    It happened very swiftly
    While I was still dizzy
    Her ex told me to pursue her
    When I looked at her, I saw my future
    And in that hopeful moment
    I knew I had to own it
    I was going to open my heart
    For the start
    Of something magical
    I could have it all
    If I could be with her
    Before that happened, she got back together
    With the same ex
    What came next
    Had me vexed
    I couldn't handle the way
    I was betrayed
    And my heart stayed
    Wounded like a stray
    Afraid of the unknown
    Waiting to come home
    So I turned to the wrong friends
    Just to belong when
    I had no structure
    I knew I had to love her
    But I had to trust first
    I explored what's worse
    Before I found the better
    I wrote many broken letters
    And gave up what little I had left of myself
    To help someone else
    I drove my friend to school
    And thought it was cool
    After being used as a tool
    I felt like a fool
    I was skipping my own classes
    So that he could have his
    And the outcome was disastrous

    chorus:

    It took me 2 years to pay off my debt
    And get
    Back into class
    Because my past
    Had all happened too fast
    And I had to amass
    A new pile of loans
    To make it back on my own
    I was paying my own bills
    And making my own pills
    Because insurance doesn't cover life
    Music has taught me to love her right
    And hug her tight
    Because I might
    Not get another night
    There's been much more than once or twice
    Where I've had to go deep again
    To keep the grin
    And now my eyes light up with the fire of passion
    There's much more depth to my laughing
    I feel like I could make anything happen
    Not living with a bad win
    Because I am too strong
    Now when I write my new songs
    I don't have to go deep
    The hill isn't so steep
    I found a flat surface on top of the world
    Where I eat my peanut butter and chocolate swirls
    And I'm glad I get to have my ice cream cake and eat it too
    It's a beautiful view
    When I get to share it with you

  • 7. these are the moments

    The moments I spend
    With family and friends
    I hope they never end
    But when they do
    I look forward to
    Having these moments again
    Until then
    I cherish the moments in between
    Friends and dreams

    chorus: These are the moments that I live for
    They give me feelings I cannot ignore
    They show me how I can give more
    These are the moments that I live for

    Yes yes yes
    It feels so fresh
    And steals my breath
    Because I am blessed
    After dropping out of college because my life got too tough
    And I lost my true love
    I had that sweet moment of redemption
    And overcame the pain of rejection
    With a moment of acceptance
    Learning life's lessons
    Getting back in the classroom
    Speeding through with that zoom zoom zoom
    Breaking barriers with a boom boom boom
    I didn't realize just how soon
    That moment would come
    When I would be done
    Tossing my cap into the fresh air
    Living that moment with style and flare
    What really matters is the people that were there
    Holding my nephew on my shoulder
    Feeling a little bolder
    Looked at the future and I told her
    That our possibilities are endless
    And we have been friends since
    And I'll gladly take the bad with the good
    Because it makes me glad that I could
    Have an experience
    That makes so delirious
    Accepting the serious
    Until I am hearing
    The sweet dream of living
    As I dance to the rhythm
    chorus:

    My nephew told me that I am always happy
    I am so grateful that I had the
    Moment
    To show him
    How to bounce a ball off the wall
    And laugh at it all when he falls
    Everything is enhanced
    When his laugh
    Is echoed by my niece
    It's a moment of true peace
    That makes the chaos worth it
    I'm ecstatic that I've earned this
    It's even better than when I heard Prince
    Live in Germany
    8 rows in front of me
    Reminding me what I want to be
    Wearing out the page
    And staring at the stage
    Not caring about my age
    Seeing the planet through the eyes of a child
    Feeling my smile
    From head to toe and ear to ear
    My heart's beating quickly, but there's no fear in here
    Taking risks
    But not making fists
    Opening up with my naked wrists
    I don't care if they make me rich
    Because I have the soul to get down
    Without
    Having any money
    Because the people who love me
    Keep me free from the
    Overwhelming desire
    To stack my cash higher
    My passion keeps burning once I light the fire

    chorus:

    What makes me happiest
    Are the moments when I have been blessed
    By being there for others
    Whether friends or lovers
    Sharing in the pain
    And burying the shame
    By helping them forgive
    So they can remember how to live
    Being there to share the highs and the lows
    Looking in their eyes as they show
    Their strengths and weaknesses
    Blurring the lines between which is which
    They know
    When they show
    The darkest depths of their soul
    That they've let go of control
    And put it all on hold
    Breathing a sigh of relief
    When my eyes have released
    And a smile replaces
    The tension in their faces
    Engaged in embraces
    As I make this
    A life full of moments that I live for
    With feelings I cannot ignore
    They let me know how to give more
    These are the moments that I live for

  • 8. time to make it happen

    My voice is my wisdom
    My choices, decisions
    Actions and lack of
    Have brought me to see what's wrong with my life
    So it's time to make it write
    Time to make it happen
    Time to fill my life with my music and my rapping
    My apartment's a mess
    And I'm feeling the stress
    Of being behind on bills
    And I've lost my will
    For a moment
    As my mind is roaming
    All over the universe
    As my thoughts disperse
    To everywhere except where they belong
    Time to relocate what makes me strong
    Time to face the facts and relax

    chorus: Time to make it right, time to make it happen
    Time to fill my life with my music and my rapping

    I'm 21, just ten years later
    Time to flip the switch on the fader
    I won't give into the dark side like Vader
    I refuse to feel envy
    Or jealousy
    Because I'm doing well you see
    I've been through more than one or two of these
    So I'll make the most of my opportunities
    Because I have a job that's great because of my potential
    To make my growth exponential
    And be so influential
    Letting others learn from what I've done
    Creating what I've become
    I have to accept
    That there's much beyond my control
    But I won't let anger devour my soul
    I won't let it be
    That fear controls my destiny
    Instead I choose extacy
    By accepting me
    I will work hard for what I love
    And I know that will be enough
    Even if everything else crumbles to dust
    I won't stumble from lust
    Instead I'll double my trust
    And love all I was
    As I embrace change
    And erase chains
    From the picture
    And switch hurt
    To pleasure
    And treasure
    Everything I've created
    Knowing that I've made it

    chorus: My life is filled with my music and my rapping
    My heart is filled with true love and passion
    My ears are filled with echoes from my laughing
    I will always make it right when I make it happen

  • 9. no ego

    It doesn't matter if I'm a better emcee
    Than Little Wayne
    Or Young Geezy
    MC Hammer
    Or Young MC
    Eminem
    Or friends of them
    That's not what music is about for me
    It's undoubtedly
    About expression and growth
    Exchanging aggression for hope
    And the lessons are dope
    Because my friends so close
    I'm not going to talk trash about anyone
    I'd rather have you send me love

    chorus: I make music with no ego, I make music for me to grow

    Music has saved my life
    And gave my nights
    Much more moonlight
    And make things right
    When everything seems wrong
    Whether I'm singing along
    Or writing my own
    It can heighten the zone
    Or lighten the tone
    When it's night the dome
    Or bright in my home
    I can see it all in a different spectrum
    When I feel the rhythm of the kick drum
    I'm riding the waves of the bass
    As it plays in the space
    I feel brave in this place
    When I heard an unpredictable riff
    Accompanied by a lyrical gift
    It's not about what I do for music
    It's about what it does for me
    That's why I choose to use it
    Once I've paid my dues it comes for free


    chorus:

    I live my life with no ego
    It's the only way for me to grow
    I mean, come on, I'm 31 years old and delivering pizzas
    Still asking if it's MasterCard or Visa
    How am I going to judge someone who dropped out of school
    I did the same thing so it would make me a fool
    Any gifts I have are just gifts
    I might get lucky and create a funky riff
    But I'm staying away from the junkie's spliff
    But I won't judge the junkie
    And feel the weight of the monkey
    That fact
    Would put on my back
    I won't attack
    And I'll rarely defend
    I won't pretend
    To be something I'm not
    I won't judge myself when I'm caught
    Making a mistake
    Just waiting to break
    I'll simply live for love and dreams
    Some that seem
    Impossible
    But I still won't stop at all
    Thank you for listening with no ego
    So we grow

    chorus: I live my life with no ego, I live my life so I can grow

  • 10. i don't need

    I don't need an entourage
    To build a big mirage
    That says I'm the king of the gods
    I don't want anyone to think I'm the best
    The thing is I'm blessed
    Because I have something that completes me
    Getting here wasn't easy
    But it was worth every scar
    The wounds have pumped blood into the heart of my guitar
    I don't care if I'm a star
    Because I already shine
    What I've created is mine
    And debt collectors can't take it from me
    Because I am free

    chorus: I Don't Need. I just want to invent.

    I don't need a hundred cars or a tiger in my basement
    I don't really want to be famous
    In some ways I prefer to be nameless
    But I'll never shun a fan who reaches out a hand
    Whether in thanks or in need
    Or to help me succeed
    If you've really listened, then you know who I am
    You've heard me grow as a man
    And I know that I can
    Be successful my way
    As I play
    The strings of my life
    And I sing with my might
    Truth is what I bring when I write
    And I ring in the night
    As images fling out of sight
    I recall memories as I kid
    Of the things that I did
    And some things that I said
    Sometimes I'd think with my head
    Other times I assumed I knew it all
    My ego grew too tall
    As I shot up 8 inches in 3 months
    It seems I grew up all at once
    But it was just physical
    I couldn't fit it all
    Together until it all fell apart
    And I had to restart
    Some pieces I left behind
    Others, I still have to find
    And that's something I'll do in time
    But I'm not in a rush
    I want to enjoy the touch
    And remember the hush
    The silence because no one was there
    Some moments weren't fair
    Or at least that's how it seemed
    But the sleepless nights made me appreciate dreams

    chorus:

    I don't need to be on a boat
    Or ski while I gloat
    I just want to see what I wrote
    And understand that I've created
    I don't want to be hated
    But it really doesn't hurt me
    It isn't worth the
    Energy to feed the hate
    Until it destroys what I create
    I just want to see fate
    Take me to the island
    As it holds my hand
    I want to breathe deep and appreciate the oxygen
    Blown in by forgotten wind
    There's no way I'll be stopping then
    Because my life will be a dream
    Better than any dramatic scene
    With panaromic sunsets
    And perfect songs we haven't sung yet
    Played harmonically by a supersonic drumset
    While the rhythm of life
    Makes it all alright
    And when I get there I'll heave eternal bliss
    From my journal's kiss
    And I'll earn all this
    By not being greedy
    I'd love for my music to feed me
    But if I ever sell a million CDs
    I'll give the excess to the needy
    And thank you all because you freed me

    chorus:

    Uhh yeah, that's right

  • 11. how i see it

    I have certain philosophies
    That will often be
    In question
    But time after time life has offered the lessons
    No matter how awful the testing
    I know that I'll come through
    With what's true
    They're cutting back on my hours because business is slow
    I'm working as hard as I can but watching my debt grow
    And through it all I have just learned to let go
    I give my hours to someone else who needs them
    Because they have the right to work hard to earn their freedom

    This is about more than just me and this is how it must be

    Letting go of the hate
    Because I know that my fate
    Isn't like going down a road that's arrow straight
    Instead I'm going down the road to the unknown
    And I don't want to be alone
    With any unnecessary luggage
    Because I know that love is
    My GPS
    As I beat the stress
    Sometimes I have to make my decisions in a hurry
    When my vision is blurry
    Not knowing what lays beyond
    It's these moments that make me strong
    And it's true
    Most people haven't been through what I've been through
    But some people have been through a lot worse
    I mean a hell of a lot worse
    That's why I don't feel even relatively cursed
    I'm just elegantly versed
    In the best and the worst
    That life has shared with me
    There have been moments where I can barely see
    But I still share in the air we breathe

    chorus: It's all about perspective, and this is how I see it
    This is how I choose to live and music helps me be this

    It's not all black and white or grayscale
    It doesn't matter if it pays well
    I just want to live my life in vivid color
    And share the hues with others
    Skipping financial success
    Going straight to happiness
    Because I have been blessed
    And yes
    I have been heckled
    By jeckylls
    In an attempt to turn my show into a spectacle
    But it doesn't make me skeptical
    Instead I just let it all
    Fall into the receptical
    Because I can't control what happens
    I can only control my actions
    I was 15 when I got my first job
    This scene made me feel like I was robbed
    Of my youth
    But it's not quite the truth
    It was just delayed for awhile
    Now it's hear to stay with a smile
    Because I'll always play like a child
    I choose not to see the negative
    And open up my naked gifts
    Because I'm a different kind of rapper
    One that doesn't battle rap
    As I rattle fast
    And prattle facts
    Instead of engaging in a war of words
    Because they're worth no more than yours
    To anyone but me
    As I share how I see

    chorus:

    I feel like an academian
    Macadamian
    With a spectacular
    Vernacular
    Picking up the local colloquialisms
    To show all the hope I've been given
    As it flows into the soul of the rhythm
    And goes until it fills the holes in the living
    If you've hurt me, then know you're forgiven
    And if I've hurt you, I hope you can forgive me too
    So we can begin anew
    And sing the first song of the new year
    With true cheers
    No matter who's here
    So we can show our roots clear
    And grow together
    So we can know forever
    Without solitude
    Thank you all for all you do

    chorus:

"liberty island" is probably my best album, though Zachariah Sebastian and M'' are very close. It certainly is the most complete in terms of music videos. My goal was to make a music video for every song on the album. 9 out of 11 isn't bad, especially since my 11 other albums have a total of 10 music videos (as of January 1st, 2016). Creating this album is when I came up with the tag line "hip-hop without ego." That's why all of the song titles, and the album title, are lower case. They reflect my use of music as a way to grow, as well as express my passion, doing so without ego.

I still regularly perform wonder, time to make it happen, no ego and i don't need. The music video for "wonder" is my greatest visual achievement, and it took me 4 months at about 20-30 hours per week, to create the video. It was absolutely worth it. I hope the song has helped you through a bad day, given you encouragement, and/or made a good day better.

The title of the album refers to the fact that I found freedom through music, but it was kind of an island of freedom, and I was trying to find a way to share that freedom with you. In many ways, I believe I succeeded in doing so.

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  • 1. A Little About Me

    In case you're a little late getting to know me
    Let me show the
    Window to my soul
    So we can take a stroll
    We'll occasionally stall
    To knock down some more walls
    I used to be ridiculed
    By some kids in school
    Which probably makes me like you
    But they never got me down no matter how hard they tried to
    Because I liked being a nerd
    It wasn't until I started seeing with words
    That I heard
    That being smart was dumb
    And blazing skunk was fun
    By those standards I'm a bore
    I don't need to get high to soar
    If I had grown to be a man
    In Japan
    I'd likely be an otaku
    But I decided to stop to
    See things from every perspective
    And stayed reflective
    So I could see through the mirror
    To get a clearer
    Image of the universe
    And took the time to rehearse
    Before getting on stage
    Let my heart feel the words before flowing from the pen to the page
    Now I use the Yen to make change
    So I say Arrigato Gozaimasu
    So we can look forward not behind us
    Through the power of song
    I know we belong

    chorus: This is a little about me

    No one has touched my life as much as my mother
    And yes, I will always love her
    Even though she died half my life ago
    Which caused the tears to flow
    She'll always be my hero
    She's why I worked full time while taking 20 hours of classes
    Without the outcome being disastrous
    Like her I can work hard and still give love
    And I know that will always be enough
    That's why I've smiled through many of the tough
    Times during my journey
    Doing what I could to earn the
    Money to continue
    And was rocking empty venues
    Not ordering from the menu
    Because I could only afford peanut butter and bread
    Having no money caused me no dread, instead
    I loved everyday even when my bed
    Was the passenger seat of my car at a rest stop
    I was thinking nothing but blessed thoughts
    And I don't believe in growing old
    And don't care what I've been told
    Listening to old school hip-hop
    Thinking about what makes me hit stop
    Versus hit rewind
    To replay the verses in my mind
    Rehearsing as I find
    When cursing in a rhyme
    Increases my retention
    By piquing my attention
    Instead of hurting my ears
    I work in my fears
    So they don't come true
    As I run through
    What drives me
    And keeps my speed at 90

    Chorus:

    I care too much about other people
    To be driven by the root of all evil
    I keep an open mind
    And I hope in time
    My flows and rhymes
    Will show you my
    Heart and soul
    As my art extols
    Benefits
    I hope you're getting it
    I'd love to bridge the gap from first to last
    But first perhaps
    I should concentrate
    On making differences in small ways
    Being a good friend on all days
    Listening to my friends' problems
    Even if I have no clue how to solve them
    Taking risks as I put myself all in
    Because I'll definitely lose if I don't try
    And I won't die
    Without living for right now
    As I put the mic down
    I still have my life to live
    So I'll earn my right to give

  • 2. Lift Me Up

    This is how
    This is how you lift me up
    You lift me up with your love
    Yes you do

    Thank you for appreciating the little things I do
    I love doing them because I care about you
    And you never have to thank me back
    Because your actions never lack
    Appreciation
    You don't keep me waiting
    Right after your hug
    You express your love
    And tell me that I make a difference
    Whether I'm making you laugh or just taking the time to listen
    I cannot solve your problems
    But when you look at me, you forget that you have them
    And that makes me feel like my life has purpose
    And reminds me what my worth is
    You lift me up by letting me in
    Your eyes light up as I'm getting a grin
    To creep into the corners of your mouth
    Just before you let the laughter out
    And that's what this life is all about
    You let me sleep on your couch
    When I had no place else to stay
    And you never acted like I was in your way
    You were just happy that we got to play
    You kept me going when I couldn't do it on my own
    And the money you gave me was never a loan
    Thank you so much for sharing your home
    Thank you for your words of encouragement
    I can't express how far your courage went
    If there are words to say it, I just haven't learned them yet

    chorus: You lift me up, you lift me up, you lift me up with your love

    You've lifted me up so many times
    When this world has left me blind
    And helped me see with my mind
    And I think to myself what a wonderful world
    Just picturing the clouds as they swirl
    Like doves around the sun
    Your love is bound by none
    I'm not down to shun
    Because you are the one
    Who lifted me up when I was too low
    To lift myself head over toes
    You've been there to help me grow
    In so many ways you don't even know
    You taught me to love every moment I live
    That's why I'm so open to give
    You made the bad times easier to take
    And turned the good into great
    My memories wouldn't be the same without you
    So just know that my love is true
    Your love improves everything I do

    Chorus:

    You didn't have to do something little for me back, like you did
    But you did
    But you did
    And I thank you

  • 3. Decisions

    Life may be a series of bad decisions
    And even looking back I still don't have the vision
    To see 20/20
    But I know many love me
    Because love guides my choices
    And I don't mind the voices
    Being guided by my mind is pointless
    Because the logic is circular
    And the knowledge won't work with hurt
    My heart doesn't bleed with greed
    But I do see the need
    To hang onto love no matter the situation
    I can't add to my aggravation
    By letting my mind guide me
    Blindly
    Until I find the
    Way back
    Using the same facts
    To choose a different road
    Or replaying the same episode
    Until it's getting old
    Life's beyond my control
    So why should I try to obtain the unattainable
    That kind of luck is unsustainable
    I'd rather not complain at all
    That's why I can laugh at what could break my spirits
    Once I understand, I have no need to fear it
    That's why I've spent 16 years writing lyrics
    They help me know who I am
    So I don't grow in quicksand
    I don't want to be island man
    Or rule with an iron hand
    I've take off my gloves, giving love to the entire land
    I don't want to get higher than
    Those close to me
    Being equal is how life's supposed to be
    One day I hope that we
    Can complete the union
    Because I don't believe it's all gloom and
    Doom and
    Living in ruins
    That's why my decisions aren't just for me
    I know what I want to see

    Chorus: I choose to focus on the positive
    Because I don't have long to live
    And I want to live while I'm alive
    That's why I'll love and give until I die

    I've been ridiculed by countless people
    They'd rather look down than see me as an equal
    I've screwed up
    But so what
    Sometimes life is so tough
    That solving one problem causes many others
    Instead of beating people down we need to live as lovers
    I vow not to judge because it's not my place
    I won't condemn someone based on their mistakes
    It's intentions that matter to me
    As I'm ascending a ladder to see
    The world from a view not normally my own
    That's why I'm not lonely when I'm alone

    Chorus:

    Recently I changed my mind
    And let it guide
    My decisions
    It started affecting how I was living
    It focused on the negative
    And I had to beg to give
    Now my heart is back
    In lack
    Of control
    And there's no hole
    In my soul

    Chorus:

  • 4. What Hip Hop Means To Me

    Rejected again
    When I expected a win
    I never neglected to grin
    When she initiated eye contact
    It seems that time's gone back
    And it's ice on black
    So I didn't see it coming
    And I kept running
    It all happened so fast
    That I fell on my ass
    I started laughing at my past
    Til it started fighting back
    That's when I knew I had to use my rap
    To get back on track

    Chorus: This is what hip-hop means to me

    Every time I feel bested my life
    And molested by strife
    I go home to have sex with my wife
    I make love with my expression
    And rub out the tension
    That has mounted
    And surrounded
    The day
    So I can climb the mountain
    I found when
    I played
    And get back to the safe place downwind from where I stayed
    Just so I can smell the fresh air
    Yes there's
    Always hope blowing to shed cares
    There's always a test where
    Life doesn't get fair
    In these moments
    Where I've left my heart open
    And let it all flow in
    Sometimes I'm not ready for the ocean
    Of emotion
    And corrosion
    Of the rocks by the shore
    So I feel the pain a little bit more
    But it's not in vain that I explore
    And I keep on walking even when my feet are sore
    And I bleed to the core
    Because I see the need to be pure
    And I sleep on the floor
    Until the light creeps in the door
    And I can't sleep any more
    Because I weap in the morn
    That's when I know I'm free to be born

    Chorus:

    Some of those metaphors paint a hazy picture
    But they're not crazy scripture
    They reflect the haze of thoughts
    And the maze that I've got
    To write my way out of
    In the past I've always found love
    From within
    To get smiling again
    Knowing that I'm not trying to win
    I just want to begin
    Because for the moment I've stopped
    All the doors seem like they're locked
    Until I remember the powers that dreams got
    This scene's not
    Written
    Until I fit in
    A key
    And get back to being me
    And now I feel free

    Chorus:

    I told you what hip hop means to Mission Man
    But I haven't told you what I like as a hip-hop fan
    I love the crazy rhythms Rakim
    Is dropping
    Not stopping
    Just popping
    When he's rocking
    The mic
    The music Dre lays is out of sight
    It pounds so tight
    And sounds so right
    I grew up on a Tribe Called Quest
    And I ball best
    When the rhymes are fresh
    I've removed a lot of mystery
    Listening to history
    Through music
    And how the other side views it
    Life isn't just about what I've read in text books
    And love isn't just about how sex looks
    It's not all glitz, glamour and rock'n'roll
    And not all chicks clammer for cock'n'balls
    I'm not hypnotized by flickering images
    I feel more wise from the lyric that distinguishes
    Hype versus truth
    The right versus proof
    And tonight's verse is poofed
    It vanishes
    As language is
    Is dispersed
    In a verse
    Interspersed
    With vivid imagery
    From those gifted lyrically
    My spirits lifted hearing the
    Energy
    That sets me free
    And lets me be

    Chorus:

  • 5. Ugly Child

    I was an ugly child
    With a funny smile
    With too many teeth
    And no coordination with too left feet
    My glasses
    Were harder than my classes
    In case you haven't heard
    I was quite the nerd
    I couldn't write the word
    Like I can now
    And I never got asked out
    Except once as a joke
    But I still felt like I was dope
    Because I gifted at math
    That's what's given this laugh
    To my heart
    Because looks were never the start
    Of my search for confidence
    I've only recently lost my innocence
    Because of bitches who like assholes
    And I ponder the strength of the black hole
    That has taken away reality
    And turned it into TV triviality
    Back to my past
    Before I got into Outkast
    I wore boxers on top of my briefs
    And the wonder years summed up my beliefs
    I was in love with Winnie Cooper
    And I thought Alex P. Keaton was super
    I was 6'2" and 160
    I was too skinny
    And acne
    Covered my face like pepperoni
    But I was never lonely
    Because I had my best friend and my family

    Chorus: I was an ugly child with a funny smile

    Now I'm just an average looking guy
    But I'll look you in the eye
    And you'll see that I won't lie
    Because there's proof
    Of the truth
    That I have to say
    And I have to play
    Or my heart stops beating
    And I'm not bleeding
    If I'm dead
    I'm not trying to get into your bed
    I'm just trying to get into your head
    Because Hollywood is hideous
    And it won't get me bliss
    To see anorexia starve the world of mental sustenance
    It's fucked up what Hollywood says substance is
    Fake breasts turn me off
    They make sex burn me soft
    And I won't see
    The third degree
    Burns
    Until I've learned
    That I'm stronger than most
    The longer I boast
    The more I lose credibility
    And inevitably
    Someone will end my career
    If it even starts this year
    I'll drop the metaphors
    So you can get it more
    You don't need lypo
    And you won't see typos
    When I tell you that you need to see
    Your own inner beauty
    Before anyone else will
    So just pay your bills
    And forget about the $300 heels
    Or the breast enhancement pills
    Plastic surgery
    Murders the
    Beauty you were given
    And the body that you live in
    Look into my eyes
    And you may be surprised
    That I'm looking for something inside
    Something that won't hide behind
    Mascara and lipstick
    And the way that your hips sit
    Above your thong
    I want to love you strong
    Because your strength
    Isn't determined by the length
    Of your shaven legs
    I only kind of care that you haven't shaved in days
    And I couldn't give a damn if you haven't paved the way
    To the home
    Of your errogenous zones
    Just take care of yourself
    And know that mental health
    And true confidence
    Are the sexiest
    Assets
    Even more than how your ass sits
    In those too tight low rider jeans
    I can tell you this because I was an ugly teen
    Physically
    And fiscally
    I'm basically bankrupt
    But thankfully gave love
    To myself
    So my mental health
    Makes me amazingly attractive
    Even though physically I am average

    Chorus:

  • 6. I'd Rather Be Alone

    Chorus: I'd rather be alone than be with the wrong one
    So just move along unless you're a strong one

    My father's been without his wife
    For the last 13 years of his life
    My grandmother survived 27 years
    Without her husband to calm her fears
    And now a friend
    Has seen the end
    Of a lifelong partner
    It was so hard for
    Me to see her alone
    Facing the unknown
    Without her soulmate
    How long the hole takes
    To be filled is a mystery
    Can she survive the misery
    Long enough to escape history
    And find laughter
    In the next chapter
    Am I leaving the right legacy
    Or will my seeds fall short of pregnancy
    And never make it to infancy
    Did I spend too much time looking at the distant sea
    To understand these instants we
    Could've achieved intimacy
    Or did I look ahead just long enough
    To give you all my strongest love
    I've learned I cannot create a song to touch
    Still

    Chorus:

    I've seen relationships I don't understand
    And I can't get close enough to see the other hand
    Because the first one's giving me the finger
    While showing me the ring that lingers
    As a symbol of freedom lost
    It's simple yet I see the cost
    Of missing signals of free love bought
    There's ten grand
    On that hand
    And a life of prison without boundaries
    The devil's minions have not found me
    To confine me
    To that inescapable cell
    My life won't be a living hell
    Because I'm strong enough to be alone
    For me it would be wrong to love someone unknown
    She has to make me better than who I am right now
    So far that's something that I've rarely found
    She can't try to change me
    Strangely
    It's hard to find a lover
    Comfortable without covers
    Naked in her own skin
    Even when she's bathing in her own sin
    I'm not perfect and I'll never be
    But I will forever see
    That I'm a good person
    And I'll keep learning
    We need to grow together
    Not apart to love forever
    We can't be afraid of ourselves or else we'll realize those fears
    And conceal eyes from tears
    That should rain freely
    So we can plainly see
    Each other's pain
    Instead of playing lover's games
    We can stay and love for sane
    Solutions on this crazy planet
    Damn it
    I need a partner who understands
    And can get close enough to hold my other hand
    So we can make some wondrous plans
    And bathe together in this boundless universal sea
    Until I've found this universe you'll see
    That

    Chorus:

  • 7. I'm Not Built For a 9 to 5

    chorus: I'm not built for a 9 to 5
    I can't work that hard when I'm not alive
    Back in college
    Some fool dropped knowledge
    Because he couldn't handle the handoff
    So he wanted me to backoff
    He made fun of me
    For my pizza delivery
    He didn't understand that we
    Had something in common
    He couldn't handle the bet, so he folded, instead of going all in
    Instead of accepting me
    He wanted to slander distantly
    And stay anonymous
    He wanted to be gone in bliss
    Staying ignorant
    Because he was afraid to be intimate
    Hiding his vulnerabilities
    Shaded by imaginary nobility
    Perception is reality
    And all I see
    Is the dream in front of me
    And the scenes I want to see

    chorus:

    I'm not built to wake up to an alarm
    When sleeping in holds so many charms
    I wonder how much harm has been done
    By losing myself to some
    Job that returns nothing but a paycheck
    Distorting my perception and changing the way sex
    Affects
    My stress
    Or is affected by the stresses
    I'd rather live my life with reckless
    Loving out loud
    And hugging the crowd
    With my words as I bow
    I could keep working my job and hope for a raise
    Take satisfaction in the praise
    That my boss' lips serve
    But it does nothing for this nerve
    Because that part of me cannot feel
    And nothing about that job is real
    I'm not built for a 9 to 5
    Working real hard just to stay alive
    Praying for my health to stay strong
    Because I have to wait long
    For my employer to get insurance
    So I could continue to walk around nervous
    That my family history could surface
    And make all the years of work be worthless
    Because I'll never earn enough to burn chips
    I'm already in debt
    I haven't climbed out yet
    And right now I'm still single
    I have a hard enough time trying to iron out the wrinkles
    When I get sick and miss a day in the office
    And if I make more money I still can't stop this
    Cycle of dependency on cash
    So I don't think my decision to quit is rash
    Staying the course
    Is worse than getting a divorce
    I won't be married to this lifestyle
    I'll fight while
    I have the strength
    Instead of crawling that impossible length
    I'm choosing a different direction
    I have no fear of rejection
    Because it's my life and my love
    I will take flight amongst the doves

    chorus:

    When I'm ready to have kids I want them to respect what I did
    And the choices I've made and the life that I've lived
    And be proud of my decisions
    And more importantly I want them to gain wisdom
    I want them to watch the mistakes that I make
    And see what it takes
    To live through love
    And give true love
    They won't feel like an expense
    Listed 3rd and 4th right after the rent
    And before the electric
    They'll never get neglected
    Because love isn't earned by earning my life away
    Not knowing the difference between night and day
    Just hoping that I might one day
    Earn that promotion
    And still have emotion
    I could grow my skills a little bit bigger
    Earn a salary in the six figures
    Climb the corporate ladder and turn that to seven
    Take the corporate jet straight up to heaven
    Only to run out of gas
    And crash
    Straight to hell
    That's not what I see as living my life well
    I won't let it be the life that my mic tells

  • 8. Out of the Basement (explicit)

    Mission Man is out of the basement
    Encased in carbonite
    Armed to fight
    Now that I thawed him out
    Without a doubt
    And he's not holding back
    Just showing facts
    About his past
    He is me
    And we will see
    A new side
    I've got a new ride
    To take me
    And make the
    Dream come true
    We'll skip the drive through
    That's my only knowledge of a drive by
    I'm back in college loving high fives
    As I'm rocking the mic
    Not stopping the fight
    Just using stronger weapons
    Longer steps and
    More powerful plays
    Blowing up the powder full kegs
    Not embracing arrogance
    As I'm sharing this
    I'm really caring since
    I don't want to face the alternative
    Surviving life because I'm scared I won't live
    And I'll walk around dead every day
    So this is the only way
    Regardless of my friends who say
    Yo he's gay
    Because I don't get play
    On an everyday basis
    But they couldn't face this
    Situation I'm facing
    And staring it down
    So I'm sharing it now
    I keep getting hit
    By a bunch of bullshit
    You'll get
    The impression
    The stress in
    My life carries the weight of the world
    By night there's the debate of 3 girls
    But I walk away from all of them
    Because the message that they send
    Is one of rude and pretty
    And full of stupidity
    They don't want me because I'm available
    I have to be sold to be sellable
    So I keep on looking for the right one
    And even though the night's young
    The stars are out of alignment
    My scars are out of refinement
    I've been through the struggle
    And understand real trouble
    My other hand feels stubble
    As the first scratches my head
    This verse is scratched in by pen
    And many words are crossed out
    Because I can't write fast enough to get my thoughts out
    I smell someone smoking pot now
    And though it should be legalized
    I don't think it's really wise
    To pile up justifications
    For the miles of this justiceless nation
    Why waste prison space
    When wisdom makes
    The ignorant pay
    For their arrogant ways
    I'm stubborn as hell
    I've got rug burns and yell
    As I slide across the closet floor
    To open up the darkest door
    I've ever seen
    I've never been
    In a situation so beyond my control
    The result of that is something I've already told
    So I'm passing on the knowledge I stole
    From the devil when he tried to break my spirits
    So take the lyrics
    That make me fearless
    Because I'm a God loving man
    But I won't ask for your right hand
    And ask you to swear
    Because I don't care
    If you're a Buddhist
    Or an atheist
    Losing God gave me this
    Perspective
    Of live and let live
    I feel right, but I may be wrong
    And that knowledge makes me strong
    What's right for you may be wrong for me
    But I long to see
    Time stop
    Long enough to let these rhymes drop
    So you can tell me that I've got
    The wrong idea
    And we will see a
    Unity of our lives
    No mutiny with power strides
    Unless we're rebelling against separation
    And combining in preparation
    For a world where we're all one
    So we can show this world that we've all won
    I've been silent for too long
    I've dreamed violence that's too strong
    And now it's time to wake up
    And see through the make up
    To the inner beauty that I'm looking for
    And there may be a book in store
    But I doubt it
    And I'm proud this
    Pen still writes
    So I can kill fights
    Before they get started
    Wisdom has been imparted
    And I need to express
    To alleviate my stress

  • 9. Freedom

    It's not money that I want see
    I'm not motivated by greed
    I want to be freed
    And I'm determined to get there the right way
    Regardless of what others might say
    I'll continue being the nice guy I've always been
    And resist the temptation to go for the easy win
    Because I don't want a devilish grin
    I want the smile to touch my eyes
    So I do not look through lies
    When I see the world I will have created
    I won't be devastated
    By how I've made it
    When I was 13, I gave my cassette to a talent agent
    The words she said will always stay in
    My mind
    As I rewind
    Through time
    She said "Rap is on its way out, and you should do something that's you."
    I've continued rapping and I'll always stay true
    Many people have called me naive
    For what I believe
    But I'll continue to not deceive
    I'll always be myself
    Never defined by wealth
    Or lack thereof
    That's why I'll never lack of love
    I'll use that love to work really hard
    To overcome the work that's left me scarred
    I'll embrace the scars
    As I'm reaching for the stars
    Falling down
    Through the clouds
    Never looking at the ground
    Because I'll learn to fly before impact
    And get back
    To living my dreams
    And writing my scenes

    Chorus: I will find my freedom
    I will have my freedom
    I will take my freedom
    I will make my freedom

    Why are the chains invisible
    When the pain is physical
    As I move my wrists
    I know they exist
    They're not just a myth
    As the limits persist
    Pure thought is lost as its transcribed from my mind to the page
    I no longer feel like a sage
    I'd like to admit I know nothing at all
    But we all know that's not possible
    The pursuit of wisdom's paradoxical
    But I choose to be oxymoronic
    Because I don't want to be iconic
    It's ironic
    I want success without fame
    I want you to know my face and my name
    But I still just want to be me
    So it's a struggle for me to stay free
    I move in and out of prisons
    Denying cynicism
    And embracing wisdom
    I am where I am because I've always chosen freedom
    And I always knew that there'd be some
    Major obstacles as I live this way
    I don't regret where I am today
    Or a single moment
    That I've chosen
    Even the ones where I've gotten to know sin
    I create big pages so all can stick their nose in
    And I choose to leave the book open
    So you can see the hope in
    The pages created within
    That contain all the words I have written
    All in an effort to see the binds and chains
    To get through the hurt, my mind's been strained
    I'll keep pushing the limits of my sanity
    So I can continue understanding me

    Chorus:

    I refuse to be trapped in a routine
    And I choose to keep chasing my dreams
    No matter how dark the world sometimes seems
    My inner light will always beam
    And my eyes will always gleam
    Fear will not steal my liberty
    Love will guide my destinty
    After I die my soul will be resting free
    Because I always give the best of me
    I face my fears
    Without wasting years
    Or tasting tears
    From the time I've spent
    With the 95 percent
    Who have rejected everything about what I do
    I've always done what I wanted to
    Which is to spread the love that I possess
    To everyone know so they can feel its caress
    And see past the dress
    To see real substance
    I will spread my love since
    It's the ship I'll sail down the river
    It's not fear that makes me quiver
    It's anticipation that makes me shiver
    Because I see a sliver
    Of light
    That guides me through the night
    And I feel much more than all right
    As the river's flowing, I'm going to the site
    That will illuminate the sky so bright
    That when I turn around I will see the fright
    That always tried to get my ship
    And wreck my trip

    Chorus:

  • 10. What Do You See?

    What do you see
    When you look at me
    You might know me personally
    Or just as a voice on your CD
    Or an mp3
    You think my life's defined by delivery
    Some make that mistake instantly
    Do you think I'd accept a definition that limits me
    And allow my life to be filled with misery
    I am not my job and neither are you
    I love my life and believe me it's true
    You could judge me for my weaknesses
    You could love me for how sweet this is
    You could tell me I'm ugly and how weak this is
    Or you could just hug me and be free with this

    chorus: Look at me, what do you see

    When you look at me
    You could see
    An ugly child
    With a funny smile
    Or you could see me run the miles
    While
    Seeing beyond the artificial
    And ignoring the whistle
    Because I've developed my own rules
    You can see someone who's overachieved and owned school
    You can see someone who's underachieved as a known fool
    I started college at 16 and finished at 23
    Do the years in between diminish just what I see
    Was I a prodigy
    Should I have received college free
    Should Miami acknowledge me
    Or bury my existence
    In statistics
    And call me average
    So they can ignore that I have this
    Education
    I'm wasting
    Or do they realize
    That they should feel wise
    Because I couldn't even ask the questions
    If I hadn't attended the lessons
    It all depends on who you ask
    And how the task
    Distorts their perceptions
    When they give the answers to your questions
    You may see me as a pizza boy who makes music on the side
    Blinded by my pride
    Or many other factors
    Or you could accept that I'm a rapper
    Who lives life through laughter
    Because I know what I'm after
    Love and happiness
    With a happy miss
    That I've yet to find
    But in my mind
    I'm exactly who and where I want to be
    I'm single and I'm glad that I'm free
    Because I want someone else who loves me for me

    chorus:

    I have no insecurities
    Because I can purely see
    Everything someone else might think is a flaw
    But I don't see what they saw
    Sometimes I'm in awe
    Sometimes I can't believe what I have
    Will you perceive that I'm mad
    Or will you receive what I hand
    To you with no demands
    Just words to think about
    When you're feeling down and out
    There's always plenty of doubt
    Going on
    Plenty of people who try to show you wrong
    Maybe it's because they don't feel right
    So they pass on the fright
    Sometimes when you feel
    Like you're spinning your wheels
    You need to turn it off
    Go for a walk
    Take it soft
    Have a long talk
    With your best friend
    Don't let the time you spend
    End
    Just because you're not moving
    You need to get back in the groove and
    Take a look at what's right
    In your life
    And muster up the might
    For your fight
    Or reduce the need to fight in the first place
    It's not worth runnig the worst race
    Don't worry if you hurt face
    Because it's how you look at yourself that really matters
    Was it really your dreams that have been shattered
    And left in tatters
    Or did someone else put you down that road
    Write your next episode
    And carry your own load
    Then you can help your friends
    To do the same
    I can't tell you if life's a game
    But if it is, winning shouldn't be the goal
    It's about what you feel in your soul
    When I was 15, I felt old
    Now I'm twice that age and I feel like a kid again
    Because I don't play to win
    I just stay and grin
    Success isn't measured by dollar signs
    Freedom isn't found with a collared mind
    Other people's perceptions don't bother mine
    And I'm unafraid of father time
    Because mother nurture this nature
    And I want to return the favor
    By passing on what I've learned
    Leaving passion on 'til it burns
    Increasing my pleasure threshold
    And I'll never let go
    So just know
    I'm not trying to tell you how to live your life
    I just want it all to feel so right
    That's why I let it all out when I write
    So I can learn about myself and pass the knowledge on to you
    And know it's true
    We can all make a difference
    We're all gifted
    Sometimes I do the lifting
    And sometimes my friends lift me up
    Sometimes it spilleth over and sometimes I drop the cup
    Either way I mop it up
    Or let it be
    Because it's still my life and I'm still me
    And I want you to feel free
    Want you to feel free
    You to feel free
    Feel free
    Feel free

    chorus:

  • 11. They'll Never Steal My Love

    I got robbed at gunpoint on the train
    But there's no point in keeping the pain
    I had everything to lose and nothing to gain
    By resisting
    All they could take were meaningless things
    My wallet, my keys, my cell phone, some gum
    And my condoms
    That were going to expire soon anyway
    I decided I'd rather live to see another day
    Than struggle
    And get trouble
    From someone with a gun
    Even if they steal my identity
    They can't take who I am from me

    chorus: They tried to steal my love

    It started off as a typical week
    I was taking pictures so my friends could get a peak
    Of what my day to day life was like
    I created some mp3s so I could practice for open mic
    It was a stress free Monday
    I was having quite a fun day
    Enjoying myself in the office
    Until I ran into the lawless
    I got on a train by myself so I could prepare for the stage that night
    Going over a new song to make sure I got the lyrics right
    And I was glad I had a train to myself
    So I wouldn't bother anyone else
    By rapping to myself
    But there were others who wanted my wealth
    One of them asked to use my phone
    And he would not leave my coat alone
    He said he hadn't called someone in two days
    As his friend stayed
    By his side and stole my mp3 player
    Just another second later
    They were reaching in my pockets
    I pushed one back to get him to stop it
    I was ready to fight without fear
    Until a third guy showed up and said "What's going on here?"
    I replied "They're trying to rob me."
    As he looked at me, he let me see
    The gun in his hand
    As he made his demand
    "Hey you, just let them take it!"
    I let them strip my pockets naked
    Until the train made it to the next stop
    And they fled without getting caught
    I was too scared to immediately call the cops
    Two new people arrived on the train
    And I said through the strain
    Of holding back tears
    And keeping in my fears
    "Did either of you see what happened?"
    They said that they hadn't
    And offered to let me use their phone
    But I had no one to call, all my numbers were unknown
    Stolen in less than a minute
    And my head was spinning
    Too much to think correctly
    With my anger starting to possess me
    I finally got home and felt safe
    Letting everything out of my face
    I called the cops from my roommate's cell
    And slowly came down from that moment's hell
    The cop took my statement and said "we're never going to catch those guys."
    That came as no surprise
    I canceled every credit card I could think of
    And my friends showed me love
    Taking me to dinner
    And I felt like a winner
    Because I was alive, but the anger still wouldn't let me sleep that night
    I had to relive the fright
    Of riding on the train again
    Reliving the pain again
    Reclaimig my life
    And making it right
    By moving on
    And staying strong

    chorus: They could not steal my love

    It's been 48 hours
    And the power
    Of anger
    Has left with the stranger
    I became momentarily
    Memories won't be scaring me
    Out of my ability to live my life through love
    When push came to shove, I reached out with hugs
    And that love reminded me not to judge
    I really hope the robbers are found
    And they can turn their lives around
    To find the strength to make a difference
    So we don't lengthen the distance
    Between the rich and the poor
    The world can't survive this way anymore
    I'm really thankful for my friends and was just really happy I lived
    Whether we've been really close since kids
    Or there was something little I did
    To gain a place in their heart, once upon a time
    What's not gone is rhyme
    They could not steal my dreams
    Because I will not let C.R.E.A.M. [cash rule everything around me]
    Money doesn't matter and it never has
    That's why I'll always love and forever laugh

    chorus: They tried to steal my love
    They could not steal my love
    They can not steal my love
    They'll never steal my love

  • 12. I Have Been Blessed

    Yeah my credit's bad
    But I'm not sitting around thinking about the things that I've never had
    Instead I'm taking the time to stop and smell the flowers And feeling the overwhelming power
    Of that wonderful fragrance
    And try to describe it with beautiful language
    But I cannot paint a perfect picture because I don't have the pallette
    I lack the lyrical talent
    To translate it properly
    So I just have to offer the
    Inspiration
    It's instilled
    It makes me think about how I build
    And how my life's been filled
    With magical moments
    And spectacular notions
    That just doing is succeeding
    And chewing on the seedling
    Will cause the roots to grow
    No matter how slow
    Eventually I know
    That the roots will grow
    And the buds will show
    Until they bloom
    And I don't want it to happen with the zoom
    Of a high speed jet
    Because I don't want my journey to end yet
    So I go for a slow drive
    Until I arrive
    At a point of interest
    Looking out the windows as I ingest
    Everything I'm passing
    Spending time laughing
    Until I arrive at the next stop
    Of the journey of more than just hip hop
    I get out of my car and walk for a while
    And I just sit with a smile

    chorus: I have been blessed to be the places I have been
    I have no less than the memories in
    The depths of my mind and the width of my grin
    As I let the rest of the record just spin

    There's a little girl picking pedals
    More precious than metals
    She has a flower in her hair
    And the cutest little pair
    Of sandals
    And more roses than she can handle
    The moment watching the girl
    Was a momentary glimpse into someone else's world
    But it makes me think about my own
    And how I've grown
    Through my experiences
    And how sincerely this is
    An expression
    Of reflection
    I've met so many people in my travels
    From people wearing winter boots to people sporting sandals
    In December
    There are moments I'll always remember
    And some I won't recall
    At all
    Until someone sparks my memory
    Either way I will forever be
    Grateful for everything
    Both the pain and joy it brings
    By providing a contrast
    I will make it all last
    As long as I can
    From the moment I was born to right now as a man
    And every moment along the rest of the way
    Because I have been blessed today

    chorus:

  • 13. I'm Going Home

    It's a pity
    Things didn't work out in the city
    But I've lived, learned
    And returned
    To music in a big way
    Living off my gigs' pay
    Which is to say
    I was eating peanut butter and bread
    Following the road wherever it led
    I didn't end up dead
    Because I was storing fat like a camel stores water
    And using love as fodder
    Would replace the need
    To feed
    My stomach was empty
    But I wasn't hungry
    And the roses smelled lovely
    At Whetstone
    But I could still wait to get home
    Because I love sleeping in my car
    Hanging out in bars
    Listening to non famous stars
    Play guitar
    While I drank H20
    Because I had to wait to go
    On stage and grab the mic
    I definitely had the life
    I always wanted
    And I loved it
    I saw family and friends
    And hoped it would never end
    It felt like one long beautiful day
    Looking for a suitable way
    To honor everything I had worked for
    And open doors
    And spending countless time promoting
    Hoping
    It would result in strong showings
    And even though I played to small crowds
    It felt like they were all loud
    Because I was the happiest I had ever been
    I have a forever grin
    Plastered to my face
    Even through disaster and mistakes
    It was all laughter no disgrace
    Living happily ever after in this place
    I felt faster in this race
    Because I was on course
    And my voice was not hoarse
    Because I was saying the right things
    Enjoying what the night brings
    Whether I was hanging out in the best spots
    Or sleeping at rest stops
    I was thinking nothing but blessed thoughts
    As I reunited with friends long gone
    And getting my song on
    I realize music has taken me
    Places I couldn't go with money
    And I'm pretty certain through the events of this year
    That I'll never be earning enough to make music my career
    And what's even more clear
    Is that trying has been worth every effort
    No matter how much my wallet hurt
    I know what it all is worth
    Because I'm standing on solid turf
    Because it's supported by something much more substantial
    Than the financial
    System we've created
    Yes I've made it
    I've lived it and loved it
    I was down to my last 5 bucks and completely out of credit
    But I wouldn't let it
    Stress me out
    I just went the route
    Of Chillin' at the Papa again
    In the town I grew up in
    And let all the love in
    And as much as I love being on the roam
    I'm going home

  • 14. Low Stress Diet

    Family, friends, music and love
    Are all that I need because they're truly enough
    I'm on a low stress diet
    I won't guess I'll try it
    I'll go just buy it
    Because oh yes I fit
    I'm on a low stress diet
    Low stress diet

    It's curious where my heart is
    I'm worriless when I start this
    Wordiness in the darkness
    I won't hurry this 'cause I've got less
    Weight on my mind and my shoulders
    I've slowed time and I'm older
    But I feel younger than I did at 16
    When it seemed
    Like the sky was a little more grey
    Back in those days
    Now the air is cooler
    Like Ferris Bueller,
    Everyday seems like it's my day off
    I finally found a way to make things stay soft
    Instead of being hard constantly
    It's simple smart honesty
    To tell you that I've but back on my stress intake
    As I make my best mistakes
    Oh yes it takes
    A certain peace inside
    As my shirts increase in size
    To not feel hurt when she just tries
    To work in recent lies
    So she can steal when I've earned this week and cries
    To mentally manipulate my magnificent benevolence
    And display it in high def with wicked malevolence
    She tries stripping my innocence
    Only to find she no longer knows what it looks like
    She threw hers away the first time she shook tights
    For cash
    And she's made quite a stash
    I could be artifical
    And get superficial
    But I want something special
    So I dress up in just real
    Clothes when I'm at the bar
    Not looking for hoes to make me feel like a star
    But it's not my place to judge
    I just live my life through love
    That's why
    Yo I

    chorus: [I] am on a low stress diet. Yo just try it!

    I don't care if my ex talks
    And tells me that sex rocks
    I'm hanging out with the homeboys playing the XBox
    Because video games don't give me STDs
    Let me please
    Your ear drums
    As my fears come
    To fruition
    Only to find they can't afford the tuition
    Required to steal my knowledge
    Acquired in real life's college
    With desires to feel life fall in
    To the depths of the abyss they were created in
    I feel the breath from the kiss that was made in sin
    My love for truth makes me grin
    And I'll never be paid to win
    Because my mission's
    Not about competition
    It's about being me
    Being free
    And seeing the
    Best parts of my life
    I'll step up and grab the mic
    Reach out the world and I'll grab it tight
    Make love to my words as I have it right
    I know that it's a magic night
    I'll tell you it's pure as I gladly write
    I'll always use my pen if I have to fight
    I'll never resort to fisticuffs
    Because my wrist is tough
    As I find freedom in expression
    And my mind sees some thin impression
    Of the truth
    I've let go of age and I've gained my youth
    I turned the page and it's plainly proof
    That as long as I hang on to my dream it's reality
    As my eyes gleam with no fallacy

    chorus:

    I take all of my stress and I throw it like a javelin

  • 15. Do What You Love

    Do What You Love

    I'm ageless
    Because I've made this
    Decision
    That the only true wisdom
    I've ever acquired
    Is to do what I love and I've always desired
    To make music for a living
    To take thoughts and feelings that I'm given
    And translate them
    With fate's pen
    I lose a little in the translation
    I choose to live tall in this grand nation
    By that I mean I have a big heart
    That's how I choose to have my gigs start
    Even when my life is hit hard
    And I don't feel the least bit smart
    I'll stay positive
    Because I have lots to give
    And I get lots of love
    From my friends when they hug

    chorus:

    Let the sunshine in
    And the fun times win
    I love my grin
    When I look like a big goof
    Appearing aloof
    Because I love myself
    And passing that love onto everyone else
    As long as their intentions are good
    I love my friends and I know that I should
    Because they're always by my side when I need them
    Thank you Jared for making this weekend
    The best birthday possible
    The good times were unstoppable
    Because we overcame all the obstacles
    Of the so called free world
    Forgetting about the drama caused my stupid girls
    And idiotic boys
    Who treat women as toys
    We overcame the need to pay bills
    So we could make real
    Quality time in our friendship
    And that's a real gift
    It allowed us to do what we love to do
    Hanging out with friends and just being cool
    And for the first time ever I watched the inauguration
    I could feel restoration
    Of pride spread wide in our nation
    We truly have a leader who loves what he does
    And does what he loves
    Throughout my life I've been doing the same
    I don't care about being a household name
    And I'll never claim
    To have the strongest game
    Or the smoothest flow
    Because I love to feel the groove just flow
    As the truth lets go
    And it loves me
    So I see within and I'll never feel ugly
    Need someone to hold, just step on up and hug me
    And I'll try to calm your fears
    As I whisper in your ear

    chorus:

    Doing what you love may seem out of reach
    As dreams are not teached
    In the rhetoric of lesson plans
    That's why we need to lend a hand
    If you love to sing
    Just do your thing
    Step up, grab the mic
    Forget about the stage fright
    And the strange lights
    If you sing because you love it, then the audience will know
    And it's obvious you'll grow
    As you take deep breaths
    And make each step
    Just a little bit smaller than the one before
    Until you can step up and knock right on the door
    Get your foot in as soon as the door opens
    Don't waste moments
    Hoping it never closes
    Let them see the love in your eyes
    And they'll know you're not a lie
    Just do your thing because there is no try
    No matter what you love, just go out and do it
    Don't let other people screw with
    Your plans and your dreams
    Or your hands as they seem
    Like they're losing the strength to hang on
    Just do what you love and they'll always stay strong

    Chorus:

I had put in my notice to my place of employment that I was quitting my job to go on tour. I had 31 hours of employment left at the time and wondered what was going to happen next. The title then is reflective of the uncertainty of the future, which is a recurring them in my music, as it is in life.

"31 Hours Til What?" is not one of my best albums, but it does have a few really good songs, and what I consider to be my defining song, "Do What You Love." It is the last song on the album because I wanted the album to end by saying "Do What You Love."

"A Little About Me" and "Low Stress Diet" are the other songs that stand above the rest of the album in terms of popularity, but "Freedom" and "Decisions" each have their fans. One publication said that this was the worst album they had ever heard. My positive reaction to their very negative review turned them into fans. Not of my music, but of me.

My growth as a musician from this album to future albums is noticeable. I will finish this blurb the same way I finish the album. Do What You Love!

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  • 1. I Need the Mic

    Lyrics coming soon

  • 2. Glimpse of a Dream

    Lyrics coming soon

  • 3. Love With Passion and Live With Love

    Lyrics coming soon

  • 4. You've Earned It

    Lyrics coming soon

  • 5. When I Find You

    Lyrics coming soon

  • 6. My Heroes

    Lyrics coming soon

  • 7. Balance

    Lyrics coming soon

  • 8. Everything Changes

    Lyrics coming soon

  • 9. Straight-Edged


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  • 10. Ready For Tomorrow (feat. Birgitta Lindsey)

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  • 11. Time To Find Home

    Lyrics coming soon

  • 12. If I Did Not Have a Dream

    Lyrics coming soon

  • 13. Deeper Meaning

    Lyrics coming soon

  • 14. This Is It

    Lyrics coming soon

"Indiependent" - definition: Indie band or musician that is dependent upon its fans.

I couldn't have kept making music for so long if it weren't for my incredible fans.

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  • 1. Birthday Song
  • 2. Ear Blink
  • 3. Life Is Something Else
  • 4. Path Untraveled
  • 5. Capture The Magic
  • 6. Stop Thinking
  • 7. I Want More
  • 8. What I Want
  • 9. Two Worlds

This album is entirely freestyled. Not a single note, lyric, song title, or idea was written down before or during the recording process.

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  • 1. Chillin' at the Papa
  • 2. Dirty Game
  • 3. Enjoy Every Day
  • 4. Hip Hop Stranger
  • 5. Hopeful Messages
  • 6. Never Had a Chance
  • 7. Not Where I Belong
  • 8. Open Road
  • 9. Scares Me To Think
  • 10. There Was a Man
  • 11. Wonder What I'd Be
  • 12. World Without Mirrors
  • 13. You Gotta Want It

Antis Trype is short for Antistereotype. It's also Shadowblade's real name. See "Out of the Shadows" for the Shadowblade reference.

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  • 1. Air
  • 2. Dream
  • 3. Empty Page
  • 4. I Can't Get It Out Of My Head Yo
  • 5. Learning
  • 6. Me Again
  • 7. MFQ
  • 8. New Future
  • 9. Nothing Great
  • 10. Open Eyes
  • 11. Play Ball
  • 12. Prime Time Players
  • 13. Revitalized
  • 14. Right Around This Time
  • 15. The World
  • 16. Wanna Get Down
  • 17. When My Dreams Come True
  • 18. Working Person's Trap

When I played a few songs for a coworker, he said, "Gary, you're a different kid." Also, as of right now, I can't actually find any copies of the album, so they are in alphabetical order, as they would be if you downloaded it.

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The character on the front cover is Shadowblade, the main character in a book I once started writing. I wrote 50 handwritten pages, loaned them to a friend, and never saw them again.

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  • 1. Great Escape
  • 2. Human Virtue
  • 3. Aliens
  • 4. Higher Learning
  • 5. Five Years
  • 6. The Night
  • 7. Another Day
  • 8. Solace
  • 9. That Girl
  • 10. Increasingly Difficult
  • 11. Too Much
  • 12. Confusion
  • 13. PB + J
  • 14. Dance In Harmony
  • 15. Love Each Other
  • 16. Day At The Beach

This album is the first one on which I started playing instruments. That's why it's called "Transitions," and why it's mostly experimental garbage. It was necessary to get to where I am now.

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This is the first album where I started to teach myself production, so the sound quality is horrendous, but with 33 tracks on a double disc, you did get to Delve Deeper after getting an Intro To My Mind.

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  • 1. Intro To My Mind

    This album's ["song's" when performed live] an intro to my mind
    Hopefully you'll like what you find
    'Cause I'm
    Working hard
    And thinking hard
    About the songs that I write
    And what I hope to accomplish as I try to unite
    This world together
    To never
    Fall apart
    What I'm saying is from my heart
    Where should I start
    On this intro
    Should I just flow
    Or try to tell you everything I know
    I don't know
    But I do know
    That I'm working hard so I hope
    You pay attention to what I say when I flow
    This song is just an intro
    To my mind so you know
    There's much more going on inside
    My mind
    Sometimes it hides
    But then I find
    The perfect idea to write about
    To get my thoughts and feelings out
    In a song
    What's going on
    In my brain
    Sometimes it drives me insane
    To see
    Some of the inhumanity
    In this world
    Old men sometimes raping little girls
    It makes my head spin and twirl
    'Til I'm dizzy
    Then one day I decided to get busy
    On some rhymes
    To let out what was in my mind
    When it's out in the open
    I keep hopin'
    It won't fall on deaf ears
    Hopefully my peers
    Will here
    And take a stand
    And demand
    That a few things change
    And a couple things get rearranged
    Like the education system
    We need to take the kids and teach them
    How to help each other
    How to respect one another
    And how to make it in the real world
    Help both little boys and girls
    Realize what they have to offer to this planet
    Then teach them how to plan if
    They want to succeed
    Because they're going to need
    All the help they can get
    Because not everybody's living well yet
    There's poverty and injustice
    But this
    Can change if people try
    We have to find out why
    It happens
    Then make it
    Better for the next person
    Everybody's deservin'
    Of a chance to make a livin'
    So they can start givin'
    Back to the community
    And maybe wipe out poverty
    And people living on the streets
    By letting them earn enough money to eat and sleep
    Under the roof of a building
    To be able you have to be willing
    To work hard to make a difference
    Help is
    On the way
    If you just listen to what I have to say

    Chorus: Take a little dip to my mind, trip to my mind
    See if you like what you find X2

    I hope you enjoy the rest of your trip
    As you dip
    Into and explore
    Some more
    Of my mind
    Hopefully you'll take the time
    To really think about what I have to say
    Maybe one day
    This world will be a safer place to play

    Chorus:

  • 2. Stay Real (very explicit)

    Chorus: You gotta stay real or else you’re kind of ill, ‘cause I ain’t no gangbanger studio gangster

    I could be hardcore, but that’s a damn bore
    I could bust the mic
    And be like

    What do you wanna do
    When it’s time for me to use my tools
    And make fools drool
    As they see me
    Pull out my Uzi
    And shoot the
    Punk motherfucker so fast
    I’m like Flash
    When I blast
    That ass
    And I bash
    That fool’s skull in
    Then I put my dick in his woman
    And do it again
    To someone else who thinks he’s my friend
    Committing mass sins
    Torturing mass fools
    Never letting them breathe again
    When I pull out my AK
    You better stay
    The fuck away
    Because I don’t play
    Fool
    What do you wanna do with this player who’s too cool
    You’ll
    Wish you were never born
    When I start to scorn
    So be warned
    That I got mass murdering friends
    To help me get the ends
    So I can spend
    The money that I steal
    ‘cause I feel
    No sorrow or remorse
    For the house that I torched
    ‘cause I come hardcore
    There will be no more
    Easiness
    Just sleaziness
    ‘cause I’m the best
    From the Midwest
    Kicking this shit
    Sucking on your girl’s tits
    That’s right stealing your bitch
    I can pull out my semi-automatic
    And get tragic
    On that ass if
    I get bored
    I explore
    New methods of torture
    For your
    Ass to suffer
    Because death is too good for
    You
    You wanna duel
    I can’t be stopped
    When I got my gloc
    And bust a shot
    So tick tock
    Goes the clock
    When your time’s over
    I’m going to show you
    New methods of insanity
    If you step to me
    It’s kill or be killed
    So I’m gonna get ill
    And spill
    The blood out of your brains
    Bringing pain
    To your membrane
    It’s plain to see
    That you don’t want to fuck with me
    And you don’t want to see me
    Get mad
    Because then you get had
    And it’s sad
    How bad your body’s been destroyed
    As I deploy
    A couple missiles
    And I whistle
    As I watch them explode
    And corrode
    Every inch of your body
    Then I laugh at the smokie
    Who’s trying to bust my ass
    Because I’ve surpassed
    His lawful status
    Had this
    Fool cop
    Tried to stop
    Me from busting a shot
    From my gloc
    He would have died
    Many have tried
    To stop me on this flow
    But they don’t know
    Even how to slow
    Me down on this show so
    Uh-oh
    The best of the best still can’t go
    Toe to toe
    With the one you’re looking at
    And listening to while I rap
    Matter of fact
    It’s like that
    And it’s whack
    When you get jacked
    ‘cause I give you no slack
    When I cause a heart attack
    ‘cause you lack
    The skills to fight back
    I’m the mack
    And I’m stacked
    What crime’s on tap
    After the murder of that
    Motherfucker who tried to stab me in the back
    It’s time to be fatal
    And play all
    Y’all for fools
    Taking you to rap school
    I get rhymes like threads off the spool
    I’m the mastermind
    And it’s time
    That you learn
    That I burn
    Suckers for a living
    Taking shit but ain’t giving shit
    It’s
    Just too easy
    For me to be the
    Man
    With the plan
    To make people understand
    That I can
    Do whatever I want
    And pull any stunt
    On anyone who wants
    To try
    Don’t ask why
    I’m this way
    Just get down on your hands and knees and pray
    That I don’t take your life away

    But anyway my lifestyle ain’t really like that, so to rap about that would be kind of whack
    That’s why I’m going to stay real and just chill.

    chorus:

  • 3. Love Is Enough

    Chorus: Love is enough, and it's the best, even compared to sex X2
    Sex is a dangerous thing
    It can make you sing
    But if it's unsafe it can bring
    Pain and agony
    To those who feel the need
    To sleep around
    They get taken down
    By HIV
    Which turns into AIDS and kills the
    Player who played too much
    Some say it's all just luck
    But it's hard to get AIDS unless you fuck
    Without protection
    For your erection
    So buy a condom
    If part of your having fun
    Is having sex
    Protect
    You and your partner from each other
    Especially if you're first night lovers
    Men if you have a woman and you love her
    Do her a favor
    And let her savor
    The flavor
    Of life
    Two seconds
    To protect could extend
    Your life
    And avoid a lot of strife
    Because it cuts like a knife
    To find out you have AIDS
    You used to have it made
    But then you got played
    By the wrong lover when you got laid
    Less than a dollar would have paid
    For an extra forty years
    Not buying that condom can cause you many tears
    And many fears
    I know that many of my peers
    Have sex all the time
    That's why I'm using this rhyme
    To raise awareness
    If this influnces
    Just one person to wait
    Then I've done my job and that's to educate
    I'm 17 and a virgin
    Because I'm waiting
    Until I'm in love
    Not talking about 2 weeks or a month
    It might take 8 months, a year maybe two
    But before I have sex I want to say I love you
    And mean it
    When I say it
    Because I'm not playing
    Around with HIV
    Because that's not me
    Pregnancy
    Is just as scary
    As HIV to me
    Because I don't want to have a virus or a baby
    I need to be ready to be a father before I make love to my lady
    I'm going to listen
    To my mind and my woman
    And respect her needs
    And still do what I can to please
    Her in ways without having sex
    Because I respect women and their bodies
    And there's no need
    To rush
    I can please her with my sensuous touch
    Across her face
    And make her feel loved with my warm embrace
    She doesn't have to be naked
    To make it
    Special for us to be together
    I'm happy just to be with her
    I'll just take it slow
    And let my woman know
    How I feel
    And I'll be real
    I want to commit for life
    To my future wife
    Before we have sex so we can avoid a lot of strife
    I've
    Decided
    I'm not going to hide this
    View of mine
    Because I'm confident I know what's right
    And what's smart
    I ain't gonna lie, sometimes it's kind of hard
    To resist temptation
    And occassionally frustration
    Sets in
    But my strong will always wins
    And stops me before I go too far
    Even if my penis is hard
    I just settle down
    Get up and walk around
    If I have to
    I know what to do
    If my woman starts to
    Take off her clothes
    I tell her that she knows
    How I feel about sex
    And that it's best
    If it's making love
    And that we'll have more than enough
    Time
    To get that sublime
    Experience
    When sex is more than just sex
    When it's a bonding between two people
    Then all the feelings of evil
    Will be gone
    And the feeling we get will be oh so strong
    That will be when forever doesn't feel so long

  • 4. Memories

    Chorus: Memories scattered across time
    Memories scattered across my mind

    Woke up after graduation
    And hearing all the congratulations
    Brought up memories
    Of when me
    And my friends used to play games in the street
    Like Ghost in the Graveyard, tag, and hide-n-go seek
    We'd pull out our supersoakers when we had to retreat
    From the other ones
    With the water guns
    Boy those days were fun
    It didn't matter what we played
    It was that we always stayed
    Together
    But what we thought would be forever
    And never
    End
    Ended slowly one day when just one friend
    Moved away
    One day
    Then another day
    Another went away
    And eventually the day came
    That I had to move away
    I spent the next two years
    A thousand miles from my old peers
    I had fears
    And sorrows about leaving
    Realizing there was no retrieving
    The good old days in my friend's backyard
    That was 7 [when I perform it live, I adjust this to my age subtract 10] years ago wow how far
    It seems like yesterday in my mind
    I wish I could be 10 again just one time
    Just for an hour or two
    Because I never knew
    Just how great life was back then
    Way back when
    I had no worries
    And only had to hurry
    To be home before dark
    So I could start
    To get ready for bed
    And put my little head
    Down on the pillow
    Into dream land I would go

    Chorus: X2

    A few years went by
    And I entered high
    School
    I thought it was cool
    For a while
    I'd just sit there and smile
    And maybe answer a question
    If it was headed in my direction
    Four years of high school come and gone
    Those four years were ever so long
    When I lived them
    And did things in them
    Like staying up 'til four
    To finish a book report
    For my English teacher
    The literary preacher
    And then of course there were girls
    And that's a whole other world
    There was one that I always thought of
    And thought I was in love
    She'll remain nameless
    I was shameless
    With my thoughts
    My mind's shots
    Photographs
    Of her laughs
    But it's all in the past
    It's just another memory for me
    Like when I used to be that geek
    Playing games in the street

    Chorus:

    Now it's [live "then came"] time for life after high school
    Time to redefine the word cool
    In my vocabulary
    It's kind of scary
    Knowing that I gotta do
    What I gotta do to
    Do what I wanna do
    Being out of high school
    Was just the beginning
    Sometimes this world is spinning
    Awfully fast and it's making me dizzy
    I have to keep my mind and my body busy
    For the
    Last three
    Fourths of my life
    And maybe have a loving wife
    And a couple kids
    To share memories with

    Chorus:

  • 5. Gotta Work Hard

    Chorus: Gotta work hard, gotta do it yourself X4

    Gotta work hard, gotta do it yourself
    When there's nobody else to help
    You do what you gotta do
    To make it through
    From the life that you knew
    To the life that you wanna know
    One where you get paid to flow
    Believe me I know
    It takes hard work to achieve your dreams
    Even if it seems
    Sometimes people get money for nothing
    It's all luck and
    No sense of accomplishment
    Comes from the money they get for free
    Just like winning the lottery
    I've been doing this hip-hop M U S I C
    For over three
    And a half years
    Just rapping for my peers
    And my own ears
    Trying to make it big with someone else's risk
    Nothing's ever happened and it's
    Taught me to do it myself
    Work hard and sacrifice or else
    I'll never achieve
    Or receive
    My dreams
    Instead I'll just retrieve
    Some cream
    From a half eaten donut that I find in the trash
    That sounds rash
    But without dedication
    And an education
    Nothing
    Happens
    You just get a big slap in
    The face
    And you'll fall down one day when you aren't braced
    By those you call your friends and your family
    They got sick of you asking for money
    And a place to stay
    When all you do all day
    Is watch some soaps and eat some food
    They'll kick you out and say I should
    Have done that long ago
    No more
    Support
    If you ain't working
    Acting like a jerk and
    Abusing
    The system
    Always hitting
    People up for all they have
    Never looking before you grab
    Now you're stuck on the street
    With nothing to eat
    And no place to sleep
    And you blame everyone else
    Because you were too lazy to help yourself
    And now there's no one else
    To turn to
    Too bad you blew
    It with your own life
    A little hard work would have avoided all the strife
    That's why you...
    Chorus:

    One day you walk by a TV with the news
    And you see your best friend from high school
    And he's a billionaire
    Your jaw drops as you exclaim where
    Did he get all that money from
    'Cause you always thought that he was dumb
    Just then you remember
    That even though he never
    Had a report card like yours
    He always had more
    Desire, dedication
    And motivation
    Then you ever had
    Now you're mad
    And feeling sad
    'Cause you never thought how bad
    Your life would be
    When you turned down Mickey D's
    And Wendy's
    At 17
    And you dropped out of college
    Because you were too lazy to work for that knowledge
    Then you watch the news some more
    And you see how your best friend founded the store
    That made him rich and successful
    Famous yet humble
    He starts into a speech and he mentions you
    And how you
    Never worked hard with your brains
    And how it taught him to work hard and now it's driving you insane
    You sit there and cry
    Looking at the sky
    Wondering why
    No one ever helped you
    Then it hits you
    But it's too
    Late
    You look at your life's slate
    And you see nothing
    'Cause that's what you are
    You used to have something
    Special in your head
    Now you're almost dead
    Because you can't go far
    Without hard work
    Just then you realize what a jerk you've always been
    Just then you fall asleep never to again
    Wake
    Because you made one grave mistake
    The last thing you saw before you died
    Was the smile of that guy
    On the TV
    That you used to see
    Every day in high school
    Your last thought was "damn he's cool"
    And "why did I throw away my life?"
    But now you're dead and that's how you ended your strife
    The greatest lesson in your death is that...

    Chorus:

  • 6. Runnin'

    Chorus: I'm running for the human race
    I'm running to help out this place

    Running for my health not for my life
    Trying to be fast as stealth but not with a knife
    With my feet
    Moving them down the street
    Trying to get quicker
    So I can get slicker
    On the court
    Not going to abort
    My mission
    Going to work hard and keep wishing
    My hard work can change things
    Maybe help me sing
    And definitely help me bring
    My message across
    Not trying to be the boss
    But do what I can to help at all costs
    Even if my album doesn't sell well
    I'm trying to keep people from living in Hell
    On earth
    Trying to make the birth
    Of children in the future
    Easier and safer
    And maybe make their lives a little better
    I'm trying to run out and touch people
    Letting them know that we're all equal
    I'm not better than my woman or my friend of my enemy
    Because they're all in the same race as me
    The human race
    You don't place
    In the human race
    Because it's not a race
    That you run
    But it's a race that can be won
    If we begin to run it together
    And never
    Try to beat each other
    And hold each other down
    As we hear the sound
    Of the gun
    That tells us we've begun
    Our journey to help the race
    We need to learn to help in the first place
    Help out
    Because there's no doubt
    That you'll get a slap in the face
    If you don't embrace
    The opportunity to help the race
    Hopefully in the future we won't need mace
    Or an oozi or a mac ten [my friends always thought I said "nuclear mac ten" so a few years ago I changed it to "nuclear mac ten"; at my live shows]
    When
    We step outside
    We shouldn't need to hide
    In fear of a driveby
    That's why
    I'm running
    To make this world fun and
    Safe for the kids and the parents alike
    Trying to resolve problems before there's a gun fight
    Because violence doesn't solve anything
    Just listen to the chorus that I sing

    Chorus: X2

    I joined the race 17 [that's how old I was when I wrote the song, when I perform it live, I change it to my current age] years ago
    I'm trying to help the race even if I'm slow
    I don't know
    How to get people to unite
    And fight
    Together
    Not against one another
    But I'll do what I can
    And run like a man
    Trying to make people understand
    That they can
    Make a difference if they try
    Even if sometimes they'll break down and cry
    Just doing little things
    Is better than no things
    Maybe just bring
    Flowers to someone that you know
    Or say hello
    To someone that you don't know
    Look beneath their skin even if it's black, green, and yellow
    Try to dismiss
    The racist
    Thoughts in your mind
    And be just as kind
    To everybody as you are to me
    Just put on a pair of running shoes
    Or walking shoes
    And unite behind the race
    And help out this place

    Chorus:

  • 7. Playin' a Little Basketball

    Chorus: Playing a Little Basketball, Basketball X4

    Playing a little basketball one day
    When around the way
    I met a kid named BJ
    He said Hey
    Wanna play
    I said today's
    The day
    To play
    So I shot the three
    Missed it then grabbed the re-
    Bound
    Threw it down
    Never heard the sound
    Of the clock violating
    'Cause I was perpetrating
    Penetrating
    With my drives
    I came to win not just to survive
    BJ told me to kick a rap so
    I start off with turn on the stereo
    Kick up the bass
    [on the CD version, the chorus for Inventor kicks in here. it was supposed to just sample the part of the Inventor that says "turn on the stereo kick up the bass" but because the tempos were different, we couldn't do it at the time]
    Then I shot in his face
    Jumper was smooth as lace
    And Discovery school yard was the place
    But BJ was good too
    Made a couple threes and a couple twos
    So it was tied when I had to leave
    Before I left I retrieved
    His number to play
    Some day
    Again
    Before I left I jumped and grabbed the tin
    Of the rim
    Hung for a second
    Then left and
    Said later B
    That was the beginning of the multicultural team

    Chorus:

    I got home from school the next day
    And decided to ring up BJ
    To go play
    Some ball
    In no time at all
    We became the best pair of ballers in the school
    It was cool
    As we watched our opponents drool
    Over the tools
    That we used
    As we abused
    Fools
    On the court
    Me and my cohort
    Made the games short
    So we decided to play with the college men
    That's when
    I picked up the nickname Baby Bird
    Because people heard
    That I played like Larry Bird
    Taking people to school was easy
    It pleased me
    To see
    Me and BJ make threes
    Our opponents fell to their knees
    And begged us please
    Don't do this to me
    They'd flee
    When they saw me and the B
    Because his moves were quicker than Bruce Lee see
    Those days were easy
    I dunk so quickly
    You could not see me
    And I'd get free
    On the break and pull up for three
    People gave me
    High fives because we
    Always won easily
    Then we'd go home take a shower and go to sleep
    And we'd do that seven days a week

    Chorus:

    But today the game is different
    You have to be more than just physically gifted
    You gotta eat, gotta drink
    Gotta think
    The game
    Otherwise no one will know your name
    And they'll think you're lame
    Gotta have court vision
    And envision
    What's going to happen
    Next
    Have to pass every test
    Every possession's a war
    Never knowing what's in store
    Sometimes you have to score
    Sometimes you have to pass
    Sometimes you go fast
    And sometimes you slow down
    Sometimes you pull up and sometimes you throw down
    Gotta play hard to win
    Gotta play smart to win
    So begin
    To work on your game and work on your mind
    Work on your jays and work on your dimes
    And when you're done just chill to my rhymes
    I'm down for today but tomorrow's another day that I'll be

    Chorus:

  • 8. Weightliftin' Jam

    Chorus: It's the weightlifting jam, weightlifting jam, weightlifting jam, yeah the weightlifting jam X2

    Lifting in the weightroom with Lamont
    Giving it all I got
    Doing pull ups
    And sit ups
    Push ups
    Then I get up
    To do a little back work out
    Give out a shout
    As I push the weight out
    Away from me
    Doing some 70s
    On each arm with some dumbbells for my chest
    Trying to make me stronger on the bench press
    Hmm... what's next
    Maybe do some bis
    Or some tris
    So I can hypnotize
    Or mesmerize
    Some of my old classmates
    Or teammates
    And my old high school coach
    I felt like a roach
    Getting minutes like they were crumbs
    No who feels dumb
    Used to call me limited
    When I was really gifted
    With the ball in my hands
    Now I'm the man

    Chorus: X2

    Time to get back to lifting
    Shifting
    My weight
    As I anticipate
    Doing some squats
    To help me with my dunk shot
    Giving Lamont
    A spot
    Yelling you got
    It
    Once he gets in the gym
    You can't stop him
    Get him in the gym and watch him go to work
    Bench press or clean and jerk
    We don't mess around
    Sometimes we clown
    But we always get down
    To business
    And witness
    Our strength increasing
    Never ceasing
    To improve
    Our moves
    On the court
    And when we get on a mission we don't abort
    Never call Lamont short
    Because he's tall in heart and strong as ox
    Like I said when he starts he doesn't stop

    Chorus: X2

    Sit down on the shoulder press
    Looking in the mirror and I'm impressed
    By the work that I've done
    Glad I've finished what I've begun
    I flex and smile
    For a little while
    A second or two
    Then I'm through
    Admiring
    Time to get back to the lifting
    Zone
    To tone
    And build mass to muscle
    I always hussle
    When I lift
    Time to shift
    Back to my legs
    So I can do some leg raises
    Some calf raises
    Some lunges
    Some crunches
    Some leg lifts and some curls
    Not doing this to impress the girls
    But to improve my game, my health, and my life
    Trying to be fast as stealth and sharp as a knife

    Chorus:

  • 9. Respect Our Women

    Chorus: We have to respect our women
    Because without them we ain't winning X2

    We have to respect our women
    Because without them we ain't winning
    Nothing
    Without them we'd be stuck in
    Misery and emptiness
    We'd have no one to miss
    And no one to kiss
    So please don't dis
    And dismiss
    Women as hoes
    Because I know
    And everybody should know
    That women have minds of their own
    There are some hoes [changed to "of those" in 2005]
    That give blows
    To every guy they see on the street
    They get down on their hands and knees
    And please
    The guys down in the south
    Of their body with their mouth
    But even the women that do that
    Only do it because some man
    Was a dog and put them down
    And you could hear the sound
    Of the man
    Slapping the woman
    Across the face
    Telling her she's no good in the first place
    Unless she's naughty
    And gives up her body
    Too many men cuss
    At their women so it's up to us
    To let women know
    That they don't have to be hoes
    To get a man
    They need to be honest and understand
    That they'll get a lot more respect
    If they're really in love before they have sex
    Otherwise all they'll be hearing is next
    Women have a lot to respect
    And men we need to let
    Our women know that they're appreciated
    Even if they haven't dated
    You
    They're still cool
    Women don't let a man use you
    And abuse you
    And hit you
    If they hit you it's time for escape
    Don't be another victim of date rape
    Kick that guy in the nuts if you have to
    Do what you have to do
    To escape from that fool
    Press charges and get him sent up for a five year bid in jail
    Without bail
    Because if a guy doesn't respect you
    He doesn't deserve to
    Be going out with you
    I respect women for all that they do
    Because they're the ones that have to
    Deliver babies
    And maybe
    Have careers at the same time
    But even if they're housewives they have my
    Respect and admiration
    Because they're always taking
    On new responsibilities
    So gentlemen please
    Respect our ladies

    Chorus: X2

    Wow
    Sometimes I wonder how
    Women do the things they do
    And still manage to keep their cool
    And put up with the men who just drool
    Because they're fools
    And they womanize
    But they need to realize
    That women aren't just sex toys
    To be played with by all the boys
    Sure they enjoy
    Sex
    But they'd enjoy it a lot more with a man who respects
    Their devotions
    And emotions
    So listen
    To what I'm saying
    Because I'm not just playing
    This song
    To let you know how to get it on
    But how to make your relationship strong
    It starts with RESPECT
    Then the FEMALE
    Will respect you more for your ability to see
    That we have to respect our women
    Because without them we ain't winning
    The race of my life
    So men respect your women and treat them right
    Women can accomplish as much or more than men
    If we let them

    Chorus:
    [3rd verse, in Respect Our Women 2005]
    Today I'm still on a mission
    To get men to respect women
    Abstinence is a good way to go
    But I know
    It's hard to live up to
    It's so hard not to do
    Something so natural to you
    It's designed for reproduction
    So I understand the seduction
    But that's not it's only function
    In it lies powerful expression
    That's why it can be such a powerful weapon
    And cause overwhelming depression
    If casual sex is your thing
    Make sure you bring
    Complete and total honesty
    If she doesn't want it then let her be
    Me personally
    I need love to have sex
    Because I won't settle for less
    Than the best
    But if the stress
    Is too much
    And you need the touch
    Only a woman can give
    If you can't live
    Without it
    Make sure there's no doubt it's
    Understood that it's just sex to you
    Make sure it's the same for her too
    Making her think it might be love is the worst thing that you can do
    I won't condemn you for having sex with random people
    It's when you use it to hurt that I consider you evil
    If you're strong enough it's time to stop the sequels
    There's more to women than sex and their bodies
    They're at their best when they're not getting naughty
    It's the heart and the mind that matter
    If women throw themselves at me I tell them I'm flattered
    But that love is what I truly desire
    For that my eternal flame burns higher

    Chorus:

  • 10. Out of High School

    Chorus: Out Of High School

    Being out of high school's kind of scary
    For this multicultural Gary
    It means the end
    Of some old friends
    Familiar faces
    Familiar places
    Never to be seen again
    It's a great win
    But there's some loss
    I never knew the real costs
    Of that diploma 'til I earned it
    But it does not good to burn it
    And I have to be strong
    And move on
    To the next phase of life
    College, career, and sometime a wife
    There will be strife
    But also good
    I'll do what I should
    And what I can
    To become a real man
    Gotta learn to understand
    Things that I never understood
    There was no way that I possibly could
    Understand these things before
    Knowledge and wisdom comes with being more mature
    Got more freedom and more responsibility
    It'll be tough, but I think I can handle it be-
    Cause my parents raised me right
    Helped me out every night
    That I needed help
    Never resorted to a thing called a belt
    My mom's passing made me grow up
    In ways that I don't even know of
    I love my mom and miss her
    I wish I could hug and kiss her
    But just like graduation I have to be strong and move on
    There's still a long
    Tunnel of life
    Before the light
    At the end
    Many turns and many bends
    Plans and goals help like headlights
    Making clearer what's in the dark night
    But sometimes you still feel empty inside
    You crawl to a cave in the tunnel and hide
    Everybody gets that way
    Some days
    But the drum of life still plays
    And when you come out of that cave
    You might see something new in the glare of the headlights
    Something just might
    Be the best thing you've ever experienced
    Or it might be death
    No one knows
    Exactly what the future holds
    Just stay on your toes
    'Cause the more you learn the more you know
    That's why now that I've had my high school graduation
    I'm going to move on and get a college education
    And learn all that I can
    Because with wisdom, I'll be a better man
    I want to look into my eyes
    Five years from now and see just how wise
    I have become
    And how much more knowledge I still have to learn from
    Life is knowledge and living is learning
    Right now I'm earning
    My right to live
    I want to receive so I can give
    I've already given my talent and my mind and my time
    Which for a genesis is just fine
    Given my devotions
    My emotions
    Hopefully they'll make the magic potion
    To making money
    To give to this land of milk and honey
    Ain't a damn thing funny
    About some of the things that go on in this country
    And this world
    We shouldn't need to hide our little boys and girls
    From the rest of the world
    We need to take away the crime the hate and the anger
    Take away the danger
    From the streets
    So we can finally live in peace

    Chorus:
    and it's time to move on

  • 11. Mother
  • 12. Is There a God


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    Lyrics coming soon

  • 13. Inventor

    Turn on the stereo, kick up the bass
    As I dunk in your face
    I don't waste
    Time
    As I kick this dope rhyme
    I drink my lemon lime
    Soda
    Wise like Yoda
    Drink my Coca-Cola
    Now I know a
    Man named Shaq
    He's got this funky dunk attack
    Better watch your back
    'Cause I'm like Bird
    Larry
    Can't compare me
    To another
    Brother
    Like no other
    I'm a great lover
    Like Chamberlin
    I came to win
    Battle me that's a sin
    Just like stealing
    I'm freewheeling
    Give me the cards and I'm dealing
    Four of a kind
    Don't mess with my mind
    'Cause I got you beat every time

"Intro To My Mind" is the album that started it all. With the exception of "Inventor," which I wrote in 1992, the album took me 3 and a half weeks to write and 3 and a half hours to record. "Playin' a Little Basketball" is definitely the standout track on the album, as it's still one of my best songs 20 years later.

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